Hello and welcome to MedHelp's forums. I think this is a very good question and somewhere inside of yourself, a warning bell is going off. Your relationship with food is unhealthy. While you don't mention your weight, you do mention severely restricting your food which is a hallmark sign of Anorexia as well as your fear of gaining any weight. Please understand that Anorexia can be very serious and lead to eventual death if not dealt with. This information may be helpful for you to understand all Anorexia entails https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/eating-disorders/anorexia-nervosa/mental-health-anorexia-nervosa#1.
Diagnosis of eating disorders requires you to step outside of it and ask for help. The best place to start may be to have a physical and express your eating practices and concerns over your weight at that time. If your physician agrees you have an unhealth relationship with food, they may suggest the next step for help. Denial of a problem or fear of gaining weight keep many from seeking help but left alone, Anorexia can cause great damage. If it is determined you do have an eating disorder, I encourage you to stick with treatment that might include psychotherapy, medication, nutritional counseling, etc. The longer you let it go, the harder it is to treat so I really encourage you to ask for help now. Please let us know what you think and how you are doing.
Hi dentedbiskcuit. I hope you come back and tell us how you are. I think it is always a find line with eating disorders but airing on the side of making sure is really important. Anorexia as with all mental health issues can get worse. I had a 'sort of' issue with it when I was a work out maniac and controlled my food in a way that wasn't healthy. Every bite was measured and I didn't take a lot of bites. I was very thin. Was I anorexic? Well, not fully probably but on my way. I had a lifestyle change that kind of switched things for me. I got married and wanted to have a child and my doctor said my thin weight was making it more difficult. I was able to say okay and eat more normally, slow down exercise and put weight on. So, the anorexia wasn't controlling me at that point. BUT, that would be something that some couldn't just do. So, not sure where you fall in this but would love to hear from you and how you are doing!