Only you and your doctor can truly diagnose an eating disorder, but you are definitely showing some of the early signs. A couple biscuits a day is not enough to sustain life, and this is called "restricting". That is what your friends see that they suspect anorexia. I don't know if the days you are "eating for Britain"(cute) you are really binging or you are eating a normal amount but FEEL like it is excessive. Yes, these are all signs of an eating disorder. Also how you feel about your body. Are you within target weight or less but always feel fat? Do you think about food constantly (but eat very little)? Does it feel good not to eat? These are all signs of an eating disorder.
It sounds like you are young and you haven't been doing this very long. The bad news is it will only get worse and your happiness and your very life are at risk. The good news is because you haven't been doing it very long, you can get help. I suggest you talk honestly and openly with your doctor about these issues.
Hello, it doesn't sound like you have anorexcia, but it does sound like your showing some warning signs for anorexica, like restricting. You need to force yourself to eat regularly, before things get out of control. Even if it means talking to your parents or doctor about this.
I am 18, and first started the warning signs of anorexica and bulimia when i was 12. It starts off as not a big deal, the behaviors are just once in a while, but it can change quickly and become extreamly dangerous and life threatening.
Please get help now.
if you want to talk more send me a message
hey my name is natalie too..i WISH i had your proplem last summer i was very thin every one was like nat your getting was too skinny stop doing what your doing ........but to me it was like the best time of my life because i was little.in the past i have been a true anorexice .it pertty must comes and goes ...i have to work at being little.like in the summer im little and i really dont eat but in the winter all i do is think about food so this winter i have gain 40 pounds i cant fit in my clothes and i will not buy bigger jeans because im just going to loss it any way and i dont want bigger clothes.oh and by the way i dont think your anorexic .....anorexic run for miles work out all the time and really dont eat...
Where to start? Are you on this board because you are concerned about your own problem? This is not a pro-anorexia website. This is a place where people come because their symptoms and lives are spinning out of control and they want help. Not everyone is ready for help and that's ok. We can love and support you until you are. But it's not helpful to say "I wish I had your problem". And it is incorrect to say "anorexics run for miles, work out all the time and really don't eat." Anorexia and bulimia are complex diseases that look different in everyone. Also, like Rach says, people may start out with some of the symptoms of anorexia and then it gets worse. Much worse. The longer someone suffers from an eating disorder the harder it is to treat. So though you may mean to be reassuring, saying "I don't think you're anorexic" may not be helpful.
I have to agree with Zoelula 100%. I have been on the pro anorexia websites and I was always much more depressed after looking at them. I love the fact that this is an eating disorder forum that is just concerned with getting healthy and for giving healthy support. I hear people all the time saying to girls who are anorexic, "I wish I had your anorexia." I use to say stuff like that cause I thought being anorexic would somehow solve all my problems but instead I just landed myself into an obsession with food and weight and lots of binging and purging. Plus people think it is ok to tell someone with an eating disorder, "I wish I had your eating disorder," yet no one would ever tell someone with cancer, "I wish I had your cancer." Both are diseases.
I also agree that you can't just say that someone doesnt have anorexia because they dont fit one certain stereotype. I had a friend who suffered from anorexia (she is recovered now) and she never compulsively exercised. She only restricted but that didnt mean her disease was any less worse then someone who both restricted and exercised.
I have to agree with warped_reflections, and Zoelula. Personally i thought you comment to natalieedear, was wrong. She is only 13, and is infore trouble is she doesnt' do something, to get help. She has all the warning signs for becoming an anorexic, and my main concern with her, is to help her understand, she needs to find help now, before she winds up into trouble, like so many of us here did. She is the same age i was when i became eating disordered. Now here i am almost 7 years later, and in to deep. I know you may not be ready for help, judging from your post and that's ok, and people here will still talk to and support you, but please be careful of your responses, especially toward young girls, who may infact be starting to have a serious problem on there hands.
I know my mom tells me sometimes, she wishes she could have an eating disorder, just for a week, so she could loose some weight, and it is the most hurtful thing, that i could her from her.
As far as you wanting to loose the 40lbs you gained over the winter, try to think of a healthy way to do that.
frist of all i didnt know she was only 13... natalie problem to me was a little problem to me.... she said she can eat for britain and eat loads some times right well i been anorexic and didnt really eat yeh they really dont eat ..and for the record all the anorexics i know including myself ....LOTS of them run and work out and DONT EAT ..... you should know stuff about me for one i just got this computer never had one didnt know nothing about anything on here.......also natalie problem on the scale of 1 to 10 her problem to me is like a 3 or 4 ....and just so you know you dont have to be a doctor to be on here .......now me im just a schizphrenic idiot that tryed to kill myself because i thought jesus wanted me to go home ...and guess what i still think about suicide every day.. i have no emotions so i cant tell when i sound off.....i have nothing left in my heart............and all i want to be able to do is LOVE AGAIN feel deeply about something..but i cant because my heart dont work NO MORE...so maybe you should think hey im on medhelp there might be people more f**ked up then me on here.. well guess what im sure im one of the most f**ked up on here...i go to 4 different rooms so fare with prolbems on medhelp .. and another thing maybe you and your perfect life should realize im 27 liveing with my parents have had not one friend in the last 4 years.no one to talk to ....i dont drive i dont work .im just stuck in this messed up house every day all day.im disabled now in my right arm and hand.. so thanks for makeing life that much enjoyable rach and zoeula............!
I'm sorry if you took what I said personally. All I can do (all any of us can do) is share the knowledge and the experience we have to help others. We are all different and we all have different experience with eating disorders and with many other parts of our life. Nobody's life is perfect; we all struggle, in different ways and at different times. I'm a lot older than you which doesn't give me any right to judge you and I hope you see that isn't what I was doing. But it does mean I've learned some things and thankfully found some peace from the craziness of an eating disorder. If having 15 years recovery means I've learned a thing or two, that is just my current situation. When I was your age I was lost in my ED and many other ways.
I'm sorry you feel so alone. That *****. I hope you find some support online, but I also hope you can find some in real life. You might consider therapy or a support group because then you might feel less isolated. Please accept my apology if trying to help another person I inadvertently offended you.
Hold on a minute. Just like none of us have a right to judge nart, she does not have the right to judge natalieedear's problem on some scale. This is NOT some contest of who is the most sick or miserable.
you been judging me the whole the i been on here ***!!
This isnt even worth getting into an argument over. Arguments that happen online are always bad. No one wins and everyone ends up feeling bad. I dont want this to turn into a post in which people are just upset with each other. I view this eating disorder forum as being about healthy support and healing. Lets keep it as that.
I agree with warped refelections. Nart, i was trying to judge you, like everyone else has said we've all been though a lot. I myselt have tried suicide 7xs. No one wants to make anyone else feel bad here. I just wanted you to know that natileedear is young, and only starting to show signs of an eating disorder, and we don't wnat to encouange anyone to get involvoed with these diseases.
I hope you can except my apology, and remember that no one is trying to make you feel bad, but just trying to make you aware.
you guys are all right....i dont want to fight either.......i know i did get carryed away....i said some thing that were not postive........and im sorry......lets more on......really you tryed to kill yourself 7 times that is sad and never met people like me.....untell i got this computer not to long ago...how did you try doing this if you dont mind me asking..
Well, i'v tried slitting my wrists, suffocating myself, overdoseing on pills, strangulation. So trust me when i say that i do know what it feels like to want to die.
Last June was my last and most serious attempt, since then i've relized that even though life can suck sometimes, I would rather be in it then dead or in a hospital, because i'd spent nearly 2 years in and out of psyc wards.
Eating disorders can cause serious depression, and suicdal thoughts. I don't know what's going on with you really, but i thought you said you were or are anorexic. Well i can relate to you there to. If you want to talk here feel free, but you can also pm me anytime.
i trying to killmyself cutting both wrist cutting all up my right arm 14 times............i really meant to die....$60,000 surgery to fix me up........it been 4 years and i havent got it together yet......next time i go to the doctor im going to try again to get on disabilty...........my right wrist is damaged makeing it hard to use my hand.i cutt my tenden bady in the wrist..the first 3 years i lived in REALLY BAD pain...my arm is really ugly...i hate what i did .............but at the time i was so brain washed i thought i HAD TO do it .........so it not like i was all after suicide.........suicide was after me....my eating disorder it like this i just gained 30 pounds over the winter because i eat to much and i hate myself for it.and i left my ex so i didnt get to bring home my trademill... i am very scared to be fat..while i was in the hospital i when from 160 to180 then 205...... after a little time...it was bad........i had to eat in the hospital it was it was my way of recovery.........last year i lost the weight went down to 137.......and everyone thinks thats way to skinny for me....to me i was still kinda fat... now im working out and going to get the weight off for the summer and then it will be back for winter...it *****.
i understand what you mean about suicide being after you. But you said it's been three years. Its time to start living again. I'm on disability already. And it's ok to do that. But you could still look into getting a part time job. I don't know if this is how you feel or not, but for me i look back over my life i can't figure out where the last 6 years have gone... i can tell you where, in depression, in hospitals, in cutting, in eating disordered behavior, in isolation. I know you've kind of been in a rut, but don't let three more years go by before you do something about it. I only wish i'd had more help 3 years ago. so after 6 1/2 years of living hell, just watching the world pass by me, i'm doing something about it. Something to make the fact i'm alive worth it.
What do you enjoy?
As far as the weight goes, weight fluctates. It does sould like dropping from 205-137 is a huge loss. However gaining 30lbs over the winter i'm guessing puts you around 165, which i dont' know how tall you are, but could be a very healthy wieght. So try not to loose all 30. Fluctuating so much in wieght is not a good thing.
Rach878 it is great to hear that you want to make something out of your life. It is so easy to just stay in a rut and not try and get better. Even though I am in therapy I dont think I feel like I want to get healthy but I do have hope when I hear stories of people like you who have been thru so much and are working on getting better.
Nart, are you seeing any type of therapist? I think you would benefit from getting some professional help. Maybe you could see a nutrionist and they could help get you on a healthy diet and get you to a healthy weight. I hope you start to feel better. Please stay safe.
Thanks, but i'm really not that courageous. it's taken me to hit rock bottom before i decided to try harder. And honestly even though i really do want to get better, sometimes i am abivelent about treatment too.
I think even if you just are motivated for one day, try to get the most out of that one day.
i know i need to move on .............i have just moved home from my ex bf house it wasnt working out.......and i was very unhappy with him...i never had a REALLY good day in 4 years with him.......... i was out of my mind when i was with him.......i was unhappy with my self too so i needed to go ...............now im starting to see there is hope for me ......my be i can get a job but........i dont have a car, and i lost my licence like 3 weeks ago because of a car acident.no one wants to drive me around....... i live 10 sec from a wal-mart i could try there but ive already worked for walmart 2xs heres another thing i havent been around people in 4 year............i dont think i will fit in really so im scared to try...........i feel so not normal i dont want people to really know me because its all bull..only on the computer can people tell what im really like.i couldnt talk like these in the real world.im just scared it wont work out im not even near the person i was its very disturbing to me......... my feelings emotion dont work... because f suicide or it could be because of the schizohrenia.i dont know...... i dont feel real any more ....... i started to eat better 2 days ago and exerciseing and im doing really good so fare and that helps...wraped i go to the doctor every three times a months ...medicine help but my doctor just listen to me they really dont tell me what i want to here........rach are you the same emotionally as always or did you change?
Rach878 you should be proud of yourself cause some people hit rock bottom and just decide to stay there. Everyone gets ambivalent about treatment, and that is ok, as long as you dont let your ambivalence stop you from getting help.
Nart I am glad to hear you got out of your bad relationship. That is sign that you are moving on and want to get better. I understand being very scared about dealing with people and the public but sometimes you just have to do it. Prove to yourself that you are strong and can face them. So what if people know the real you. You will be suprised how many people will appreciate someone who is real. Also most people I know have been pretty chill when I reveal to them about any of my psych problems. They just accept it as a part of me. They know me as a good friend and that is what is most important. I am also glad to hear you are eating better. Keep it up!
what do you mean when you say "they really dont tell me what I want to hear"? I personally dont want a doctor or therapist to just tell me what I want to hear because then I may never really get anywhere in my recovery if I am not challenged sometimes.
i am so sick of food.....i hate food specially good tasteing food.......i just want to cry right now........its finally nice out so i can walk every day and excersice........if its not raining....and i really need to loses wieght..... if i lived alone i would have healthy food in my house and little of it......my mom sends $200 a week on food........and she bakes cookies and browns and cake every day..........so there is like alot of food around me.....ive gain 10 pounds sence i moved back in with my parents in little time...in my head it like i GOT TO eat perfect with the way i eat everyday..........and i was doing real good but then i seen some new browns in the fridge i had 2 browns couldnt conrol my self and it was the end of the world...i never feel good when i eat alot i feel unhealthy and fat....and need to sleep some times because i eat to much......after i ate the browns i felt so bad i went and pucked them up..because that way i can fix what i did.... i dont want to stay the same size for summer im trying really hard to loss weight now .... ....but i dont know if that will work because of all this food im around .....i really hate being around food it just makes it hard to do what i GOT to do.....i asked my mom to hide her food and she will not do it.....i dont puck all the time ....but i have done it before.....
i mean they really dont help me out any... its not like they tell me step by step what to do......or where i should start....they just dont help you guys help more then my doctor
i know i shouldnt puke and i dont want to do it again.......i guess i will just have to try harded to avoid food........
Nart, I know you may not believe this because of the state you are in but a couple of brownies is ok. I dont know if you really need to lose weight cause if you are suffering from an eating disorder your preception of your body is probably a little messed up. Maybe you need to sit down and have a serious talk with your mother. Explain to her all the reasons why keeping unhealthy food around the house is very damaging to your physical and mental health. Tell her you need her support.
Well as much as people on here love to help a person in need, we should NOT be taking the place of professionals like doctors and therapists. We provide support but your recovery will depend mainly on you and a good doctor. If your doctors are working out maybe it is time to try and find new ones. Please stay safe.