Weight loss, bad habits?? Something's not right

[xconniex]

I'm 19, I'm 5'5 and 114 pounds. I've been losing weight since last October maybe, Starting at 11stone 7. I'm noticing I'm getting more and more restrictive with my caloric intake, I keep a diary so I know what's going on. I tend to keep it around 400-700 calories a day. I know it doesn't sound like much, but usually, if I start going into the 600's I'm immediately disappointed and then vow to stick under 500's the day after. I'm very good with watching what I eat, unless there's crisps, chocolates or sweets around. Like even if it's not mine, it could be my brothers, I would think about it most of the day and then sneak at night and eat it. But after I do this, i get upset and feel so stupidly weird. I do make myself sick afterwards. And say the next day I wake up and it says I've gone up a couple of pounds, I know that weight fluctuates every day, but I like lower my calories by 100 again. But I repeat the cycle again and again. It's like I work so hard to lose weight, and then I'm ruining it even though I know I'll hate myself afterwards. Anyway relate to this??
Please don't judge

[xconniex]

Want to stop*
Stupid phone keeps sending messages when I am not finished!!
And, congratulations on becoming a mummy, my brother and his girlfriend had their baby 2 weeks ago xx Best of luck :) Xx

[xconniex]

Thanks for your advice:) And I know it's not healthy to throw up food, I just get impulses and can't stop thinking about what and how much I ate. I've never really had problems with eating and food in the past, I've was always thin until early last year, and before I knew it, I'd gone from like 8 stone to 11 7 in a few months. Even though I'm back in the 8s now, I don't see thin, and I certainly don't feel it. I feel a bit silly trying to talk to a doctor or someone I know, saying I think I may have a problem, because it's like I'm the one trying to lose weight and I'm the one restricting and throwing up. And I'm not underweight. I wouldn't really like to tell anyone, cos i know they'll just tell me to stop trying to lose weight this way, but I don't think I can, let alone wan r

[xconniex]

Thanks for your advice:) And I know it's not healthy to throw up food, I just get impulses and can't stop thinking about what and how much I ate. I've never really had pr

[licclemummy]

Crisp***

[licclemummy]

Hun. I would say you need to calm down. Bringing you food back up it not healthy. And also a healthy diet needs the odd bag of Chris an hit of sugar maintained proper strength. I'm 5"5 and my BMI is 18... I worry that I'm to fin. It's never going to b hard to loose the weight u may gain. So stop worrying all the time. And have a snack. Don't throw it back up but go for a jog the morning after if you worry. I'm no doctor. But I used throw my food up to. And it almost ruined my life. I got my self to a healthy weight and now I'm happy an having a little bby. ;) my weight has dropped dramatically threw morning sickness a  that scarescares me more the anything.Hope tthis helps. Xx