Will this ever go away?

[LisaMarie25]

For the past 2 years, my issues surrounding food haven't been too bad and most of my eating disorder behaviors had subsided to a much lower amount. For about the past month things have been resurfacing. I have started to really restrict again and right now I'm seriously just not hungry. All of the negative thoughts surrounding food and calories and purging have come back. It feels like this is just never going to go away.
Has anyone dealt with these feelings? Doing good for quite a while and then things start going down hill again?

Thx,
Lisa Marie

[Lilfluffyclouds]

I know this is an older post but I came across it & this is me right now. I've been doing good for what seems like forever but has actually only been like 2-3 years. I guess that's not bad but suddenly a lightswitch went off & I've Ben working out & restricting & I have NO appetite. Just water & carrots is what I crave. It's all so dumb because I know better but I've found my eating disorder therapeutic. As many do. Life is picking up for me right now & my Ana tendencies are fitting right in with the fast pace change of things going on in my life right now. I think there was a trigger. Identify it. But work on getting back on the right train of thought. Back on track with eating. Psychotherapy for sure

[freeme14]

I've been struggling with bulimia for 14 years and it's just been getting better the last year or so. The thing that helps me the most is finding what makes me happy and what brings me down to the point of binging and purging. It's usually stress or feeling inadequate. I know the difference of being healthy and being unhealthy. My relationship with food is still and probably always will be love/hate. I have to tell myself that I need the healthy food to keep me happier chemically because food effects our mood. I hate feeling depressed and shutting people out. I want to be happy and living a fulfilled life more than I want this disease. Yes, weight still plays a big part, but emotions play a bigger part. I hope this helps and thank you for sharing as I also struggle.

[lilymoon]

I thinkonce you have an eating disorder its always going to be something to watch out for but that doesnt mean that you cant mostly manage it! Its harder in times of stress I think,have you had some stress lately. the things that helped you get better can you apply them now?