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ednos don't exist

Im 22, 100 pounds 5 feet 5 inches. I'm not scary skinny in fact I wanted to go to treatment because I should be on depression medicine but wouldn't take it because I fear it will make me fat. I wanted I wanted to go to treatment get control of life and learn how to eat normal feel good and be happy then i wanted to be able to come home wanting to be alive nor depressed.. but I wasn't sick enough skinny enough to go away. .I lose the feeling of control and I think that's why I sometimes throw up my food sometimes use laxatives sometimes starve/restrict and binge eat.Eating disorder? No I don't think so. I've been in this cycle for 6 years sick on and off and I've never had any hospitalizations dramatic weight gain or loss.. and I don't think it's an eating disorder because Noone has all the eating disorders at once? Sometimes I think I want to feel something and that's why I do it :/ I always go a while where I'm really sick but then I start eating again. Never normal though but healthy enough to get through the days and usually get a small menstrual cycle still. I had my blood checked last week to see if anorexia was effecting me my levels were all fine right now I'm smoking marijuana once or twice a day basically medically but then I lose control and feel so hungry and binge 2,000 calories or more at once and feel so awful. My stomach my body my head crys stop I am full stop eating but my brain said I'm starving. When I don't smoke I can't really eat I have no appetite and if I do eat I feel really sick like throwing up. Why does food make me feel so sick. is this an eating disorder? Or something else
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514715 tn?1338266258
MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL
Hello,
Good for you that you are thinking about entering treatment.  What a brave step!  You’re on the right path.  Getting help could assess and address any depressed mood, out of control experience and scared feelings.  I’m not sure what you mean by “I wasn’t sick enough or skinny enough”… Were you denied health care? Or is this your own perception? Based on the information you have shared, it is worth seeking treatment again.  In regards to if it is an eating disorder or not….. you stated, “no one has all three disorders at once”. While you may be engaging in (3) different behaviors, it does not mean you have 3 different disorders. In fact, it is quite common for those who struggle with eating disorders to engage in different eating disorder behaviors. You would need to meet with an eating disorder specialist for a full assessment to get an accurate diagnosis. I strongly encourage you to meet with a mental health professional that is trained in eating disorders for a consultation. They can do a full assessment and recommend the appropriate level of care. For more information about the different kinds of eating disorders and the different levels of care available, you can visit the bella vita website.  Best regards, Dr. Patricia Pitts, PhD The Bella Vita Los Angeles, CA
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It's probably safer too have ednos rather than just one disorder so that's good
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Um, ednos does exist.I had it and did all that stuff too. Though my weight did fluctuate a lot.
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