I am sorry, but it sounds exactly psychological, but this can be fixed, you just need the right help. Make an appointment with a psychologist. In your mid thirties you should not have this issue from a physical stand point. Many things from our childhood can direct how we perform.
It has nothing to do with how good a man you are or your worthiness, only how you feel about it.
Normally, good sexual experiences when younger enhance your sexuality. Perhaps you had some bad times you are not stating here.. but a few sessions with a psychologist should get to the basis of your issue.
Thanks for your reply.
I'll read your other posts to get better insight into my problems.
What do you think I should do now?
Hey gottalift00, thank you for posting. The questions you are asking yourself and what you are feeling, I've asked and felt too. It's normal to feel this way as a man. My injury also occurred at an early age and lasted through my 20s. Viagra even stopped working for me.
I've also had the experience in the medical system only being told about medication, and doctors not wanting to entertain curative solutions, even investigation into what is going on.
Perhaps you've read a post of mine on this site before, so I hope I'm not repeating. But I learned that you can think of an erection in three parts: (1) initiating (brain/nerves), (2) filling (blood flow in), and (3) trapping (keeping the blood in the penis)
You get stimulated, you relax, blood rushes into the penis, this causes the penile tissue to expand, it expands against the wall of the penis (tunica). Inbetween the wall of the penis and the penile tissue are veins. When the penile tissue expands fully, it pinches the veins shut, preventing the blood from escaping, thus maintaining a hard erection. When arousal reduces, the tissue contracts, the veins are opened back up, and the blood escapes back to the heart.
So the cause of ED can be in 1 or more of these three parts.
For me I had localized blocked arteries and scar tissue. Blocked arteries affect the inflow of blood, and the scar tissue holds back the penile tissue from expanding to one extent or another. If the penile tissue is held back from expanding then the veins are not (fully) pinched shut, thus blood is able to escape as soon as it enters the penis, and that may mean an erection is lost almost instantly or just doesn't get hard enough for penetration (venous leak).
There are different tests a urologist who knows, can do. And there are treatments out there, several I have gone through myself. So things can get better and there is hope.
I suppose psychological is a real cause out there for some guys, but physical is also a cause, and it's probably physical - that's my bias anyway. I wouldn't accept psychological unless all the other boxes have been checked off first.
My case was obviously physical - but it didn't stop doctors from telling me psychological either - I was 100% perfect erections, had an injury, then was impotent. Didn't matter how stimulated I was, there was a physical issue going on, it doesn't reflect on the girl, on you, on anything other than a physical issue, just like if you injured your hand and couldn't write so well for a while - no one would even think how that has anything to do with what you're writing, your mental state or anything like that. The penis can be injured. For some reason I didn't even really think it was possible, but then it happened. I don't know why the medical community is so confused about this. You can injury any other part of your body - why do doctors jump to psychological so much when it comes to that part.
The other depressing part is that all of this held me back from having a very active sexual lifestyle during my 20s. I did have a steady girlfriend for part of that time, but when it ended, even she told me that I wouldn't be able to make love to anyone else.