If you haven’t already, have a long conversation about how you feel about it. All the fear and anxiety you have felt since you thought you might lose her to feel inadequate for her now. Don’t just tell her it’s not her fault, tell her how beautiful she is and why you love her and how you will always fight for her. After all that try fooling around but agreeing to no actual sex for like 2 weeks. Sex off the table but this will give you guys a chance to enjoy one another’s sexually with out any restraint or fear
I can help you. How old are u and what meds do you take?