hey ladies,
dh and I are now seperated so until I find someone to ttc with I will be here for the support of you all... No pitty party for me between you guys and God I will be fine :-) Lots of baby dust and sticky vibes to you all!
To: Ladies- My BFP is over !im so sad
Hi Ladies,
Im so devistated today. I was finally pregnant this month on my second IVF try. You may have seen my posts 2 weeks back. I am 41 and had a transfer of 6 what were considered to be almost perfect5 embroyos - 8 and 9 cell with less than 5% fragnmentatio. I started the HpTS on day 7 and started with the faint line and then the digital that showed pregnant - on Wed June 22 I gotr my first official BFP with a beta of 154. This past Tueday June 28, I went in for my second beta test ( 6 days after the first) - after my bloode work on the morning I went to work and I started bleeding - My stomach dropped and my heart was racing,I was prayng oh God no!! Please pleaae let this be nothing, I caled the clinic and they said go home and rest and theyd call me as soon as they had the results of my morning blood work - when I got home I noticed a clot that I passed, and then I stopped bleeding. I was absolutely devistated and my heart raced fror the next 4 hours waiting for the call - when I got the call they told me my #'s went up to only 815 and they had wanted to see them over 1000 at that point, Ijust new it was over. She said to come back in 2 days -When I went in yesterday they confirned the chemical pregmancy - the #'S dropped to 200( which s what they call it - but there was impantation but not for long ) .. Needlesss to say I am just so devistated..I can';t believe it.,.,How coud;l someone be on toop of the world one minute and then within the matter of an hour its over.. I;m 41 years old- my insurance is done paying for IVF ( I had a lifetime max of 2 IVF cycles) I have never been so stressed out in my life - I thought for sure this was it for me I was finally after all these years going to have the baby Ive been praying for every day , everytinme I blow out candles oin my birthday cake, everytime I throw a coin in wishig well, everytime I wish in a star, everytime I light a candle at church.,, My next step now is $20,500 I have to have IN advance to get 2 fresh and 2 frozen cycles ( I guess the program to get 70% back ended with 37 years old) Where in the world am I going to get twenty thousand dollars??!! - If I can get someone to finance me it will take me 3-4 years to pay that off - which is fine , but what happens if It still doesn't work?> how could I find another $20K?? I have no time to wait , I;m 41 and 1/2 - I don't have the luxury to wait a second on this..,., I am sooooo miserable, why is this happening to me?? ,, Why does my sister in laws, 4 children all be unwed teenage mothers and I have nothing.., I wish I could find someone that I could give the 30k for a baby.., I just want to buy one somewhere so Iknow the money I spend will result in me being a mother.,.Im sorry to rant like this, I am so stressed out , so so unhappy and just so sad., Is anyone out there over 40 and actually had a sucessfull IVF ??> If I coiuldn't get 6 perfect embryos to work - whats it gonna take???? - Ladies I am also interested in beginning to look int adoption for a baby but I havent the faintest Idea where to start., anyway - thank you to anyone out there for listening to me ,, I wish you all the best,
Well I think i missed my surg on thursday, friday and saturdays OPK was negative, but i had a faint line on thursday, so that should put my ovulation about friday evening friday night, and i BD friday afternoon, and i am going to attack my hubby today :). so here is to TWW
Hi Holmsie07- How did your beta go? I'm praying you had good results.
So I broke down and bought 2 packages of HPT's this weekend ( each one contained 3 tests) I took one Friday morning which was 1 week past transfer. I thought I saw a very very faint line but then I realized it was my eyes playing tricks on me. Saturday the same thing. But Sunday morning I saw a clear line indicating postive but it was light ( about 1/.3 of the intensity as the contol pannel line) Last night I bought another brand of kit - and took 2 more tests- they both came out with a blue line - its stil very light but it's a clear line. ( about 1/.2 the darkness of the control)....,My husband tells me to stop, he thinks Im getting my hopes up too much .. . My whole life i've taken a bout 75 testd and have never seen ANYTHING in the test - always just the white circle - no color ..so it's hard not too get excited..,, Im afraid I'm going to jinx myself - how dumb is that.??!!! im just so nervous ....My first beta is wednesday . Has anyone out there ever gotten a faint positive on the HPT?>> and if so, what were you're ultimate result for your beta??
Ooh you must be so nervous - I am saying a prayer for you now to St. Girard - he's the Saint for Expectant mothers!! Please let us know how yoiu make out - does your place give you results same day? I do my bloodwork around 7am and the results will come from 1-5pm same day
My first one will be Wednesday - today is Fridya - today is 1 week since my transfer.. I just pray to God it worked this time. I transfered 6 almost perfect embroys - I keep thinking if these dont implant which ones will???!!
Looking forward to hearing back from you -TOns OF baby dust to you... and me :)_
Hi There!
Actually my BETA was this morning. I'm on edge waiting for the results. I'm a little nervous...last night I started spotting this dark brown discharge and again this morning(TMI). I'm not sure if this is AF or it's a good sign. Ugh....the office will call with the results this afternoon. **bitting fingernails**
How are you?