Anyone here beginning IVF cycle? (NOV 2009)

[trying2conceive]

Just wanted to start new thread for anyone beginning IVF cycle during the month of November :)

[babywanted556]

Congratualtions.........what a surprise!

[kathyny]

I got pregnant on my own after 3 days of estrogen therapy to lower my FSH 18, and had done the injection of ganirelix.  Had been having weird reaction to coffee and a couple of other symptoms that prompted me to take a pregnancy test.  Took it 5 days before af due and it had a shadow of a line.  Went to RE, had blood pregnancy test, they called later to say I was pregnant and to stop all the ivf medication I had begun and to start taking progesterone.  

[babywanted556]

After 2 weeks of vacation, back to work to day and feel not working at all.  There is a bunch of work waiting for me and I'm so lazy.  I wish I could stay home for the whole pregnancy.
I could not wait for tomorrow.  At 8:30pm, I stop by at Kaiser and get BW done.  My DH wants to get something to eat and I don't feel eating at all for 2 days just worry.  When I got home at 9:15pm, login to PC.  Voila, HCG result is ready, how fast!
It's 70
Even It's not really high compared to others but I'm so happy about it because my previous beta only 47 and 37.  Now just waiting for it to double.

I wish you the best for your beta as well.

[trying2conceive]

It was hard being at work today, getting back into the routine and what have you. I was very emotional on the way to work and when I first got there. Thank God my day went by super fast. I got a call from the clinic to confirm my BW tomorrow only to be told that they don't give you results on the first test. They run tests again 2 days later, THEN they let you know. Seriously?!?!

I couldn't freakn fit into my slacks this morning. Of course I wore black, a scarf, and a coat to "cover up". I'm usually the type to walk briskly - not so today. I was walking like some ole lady. I know some ppl were looking at me like, "what's up with her" but they didn't dare ask. A friend who knows what's going on told me, "well you have this glow" I know she is being kindly optomistic and I'm thankful for having her around. Of course, I'm sure the glow is due to not having to be at work and sleeping in and taking naps.

With both lunch and dinner, I felt like the food was stuck right at the throat after I finished eating. I don't necessarily want to puke but I keep belching like I was trying to please the chef!

babywanted556: I wish you much, much, much luck tomorrow. I am so praying that this works out. Through God, all things are possible.

Mariana: I'm sorry that you had such a stinky day yesterday. Como dicen, despues de la tormenta llega la calma...hang in there!

[babywanted556]

I'm so sorry for all that happen lately.  I know when bad thing just happen they come altogether.  In my country, people said bad luck goes for yourself.  As long as, we're healthy, we can make them up later.  Try to take care yourself, enjoy the Xmas with family and next year will be your year.  Wish you the best.  Remember, we're here for you.

[Mariana101]

My fu....ing Blackberry died last night, just like my baby... I lost it yesterday, the police found it and this morning at the Sprint store they told me that there is NO way to fix it/ get all my info. Whatever.... I want November to go away and never come back.
This is my last awful venting to you girls.... sorry :(

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Babywanted and Trying2conceive I AM THINKING OF YOU BOTH!!! and praying hard!!!
Happy happy Beta and December for both of you!!!
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[babywanted556]

I don't know why I could not left you a note.  Anyway, I'm so thank for your praying.  I really hope this will work for both of us.  Last year, about same time as now, I first got BFP ever in my life and so excited, beta is only 47 and I have early MC.  This time, I don't want to be excited, I hope to have a strong beta which will make me feel a bit safer.
Since I start this process, I stop coffe, tea and so on.....and I know what you mean a cup of coffee :-)
I wish we both get the good news tomorrow.  stick stick stick baby.

[trying2conceive]

I'm sooooooo happy for you. Stay positive and remember many women don't feel much of anything at the beginning. Continue to treat your body as if you are. I'm praying that this will be the one for you. Our beta date is right around the corner. I'll be at work that day, but if I happen to get good news I'll come on to the site late in the evening. Keep me posted.  (((hugs)))

My way of coping with this now is I told my DH if this didn't work, that same day I would go after work and buy myself a gi-normous cup of coffee. (Of course, deep down I want to hear that my #'s are good and that the only intake of coffee I'll be having is through my nose pores)

[babywanted556]

Mariana: what a wonderfull insurance!  That saves a lot.

trying2conceive/mariana:  I have digital clearblue again today even I'm telling myself will wait till beta.  I know I'm inpatient.  It said "pregnant" finally.  However, I don't want to be excited because I don't have any symptoms at all and my MC/ectopic pg this yr also no symptoms.  I'm praying this one will stay with me.  My beta is on tuesday, 12.1.09, 2 more days to go.  Wish me luck

Thanks

[Mariana101]

Hang in there girl:)

All my IVF are paid by insurance in MA (I'm lucky about that. they paid for seven cycles but i need approval each time.) but IVF it is nor working with my eggs so I will ask the doctor about egg donor. That I will have to pay I think.

[babywanted556]

I look closer on the calendar, my beta will be on Tuesday as yours not Monday.  It's 12dpt.

[babywanted556]

Sorry for your loss.  Could you qualify purchase a package of 3 cycles or money back program?  Those program would help you more relax on the treatment because you know if this one not working you still have another try.  It helps me a lot even on finance or emotion.  I really hope it works next time.  Wish you the best.

[babywanted556]

I'm with you all ladies.  I have no one to share about infertility because they won't understand.  I just pretend not ready to have a kid yet even I'm 39.  The last 2 times with 1 MC and 1 ectopic pg they all including my parents and sisters/brothers assume I conceived naturally. In order to have all IVFs so far, I got the credit line from my home, then max out the credit cards, now my 401K because I know If I can not pregnant now it's to late to be pregnant in another couple years later.  I still have 1 more cycle left, and thinking of surrogate.  My younger sister had 2 kids.  I think something must be wrong with my body......I always transfer 5 or 8 embies which is alot.  How come none should stick.
I test again this morning, "Not Pregnant", but the faint line is still there.  From my past experience, Some thing must be wrong there again.  With previous BFP cycle, it should be positive by now, otherwise, the beta is low and turn out either MC or etopic one.  I won't test again till my beta on monday, 12dpt.  I'm ready for the bad news on beta day.
Best luck to us.

[Mariana101]

It's all so WEIRD!!! Two days before my beta I felt EMPTY inside, if that makes any sense. My tummy was flat again... I wasn't as hungry as before and I just felt something was wrong. Then two days after my beta was 17 and friday it was 13. They said the embryo (I had 3) did not implant or whatever!!!! MT HUBBY IS SO FRUSTRATED!!! He even wants to change doctors... But I know it is not the doctor... God does not wanted this to happen this time :(  I have to beleive in something because otherwise I will really grow bitter and won't be able to tolerate having kids or pregnant women around me.... I work with kids so I better put myself together soon but this is very very very difficult to understand.

This was my third IVF and I am going to keep going.... not sure how many times more because I only had 3 eggs last time... my eggs are running out!!!

My first and second IVF were totally negative... not even a small beta at least I had a baby little beta this time... I really hope next time will work otherwise I will have to do egg donor, embryo adoption or real adoption... in that order

[trying2conceive]

Since your beta is on Monday, how many days after transfer will that be for you? I have mine on tuesday and it will be 10dpt.

Well I know nothing is gonna stop you from testing :) So maybe tomorrow morning, if you test again, the line might be clearer? I wish you the best babywanted.

I too have been feeling sad here and there since yesterday. I wanna cry at moments for no given reason. I don't even want to go back to work. I don't want to have to face anyone. I'm not the best at hiding my emotions, but I certainly don't want to share this w/ anyone at work because deep down, they don't know what I have been through or what I'm going through. Almost everyone at work has a child. There are but a few women there who don't. Everytime someone is pregnant, I get the question..."so, when are you having yours?" I just don't understand how life works. Growing up, I never imagined having a child would be a battle. My DH and I bought our home soon after we married. We got a home w/ ample room thinking we'd build our family right away. Seeing extended family was no longer enjoyable because they all kept expanding their family and meanwhile we were the couple who kept getting the million $ question, "so when are you guys having one?" Why was it that members of our family had children and couldn't even do a decent job of raising them. Oh, but they kept popping babies left and right. Why is it that even though members of our family (women) had abortions earlier in their lives, they were still able to conceive years later. Where is the justice in all of this? I keep coming onto this forum because I have no one else to share this with. Who would understand? The friend who has been able to conceive naturally? I've brainstormed a million things I plan to do to help me cope if this doesn't work.

[babywanted556]

My beta is Monday.  I don't feel good today as well.....so sad and don't know why.  I left my work place early and stop by CVS pickup clear blue digital, even I just get BFN this morning with a dollar tree test.
Got home, and test again.....I'm so impatient.....I know it's still too early.  I keep waiting and waiting.......so long than usual, but finally "Not Pregnant".
I'm so upset, anger, then I break the test apart.  Right away, I see the second faint line there.  I don't know what to think.  Am I going to get pregnant or when I break the test it make the second line?  I will test again tomorrow and sunday.

[trying2conceive]

I know what you mean...I wish I had some god given gift to figure out whether any of the embies stuck. There have been a few women on here who did get BFP on their 1st IVF and that gives me hope. On the other hand, I don't feel like I have any symptoms that confirm anything. I keep looking back at the pic of the 4 embies my DR gave me and wonder if any one of them has snuggled. I so want this to work. I just think it's so unfair. I just want God to allow me to have 1 healthy baby...is it too much to ask for?

Today,  I am not feeling anything. It's an empty feeling.

So you go in on Monday or Tuesday for 1st beta? I am rooting for you and hoping that at least one of those embies sticks - good luck!

[babywanted556]

I feel so nervous even try to stay positive but this is my 5th IVF.  I got so tired with this process over and over.  I dont know what's wrong since I transfer 5-8 embies each times and I suppose to get at least 1 stick.
I don't know what to think, I try to analyze every single symptom and could not tell my embies still in me or not.

I don't have any symptom, no BB's tender....I could not tell I have cramp or not, maybe a little bit of cramp or lower abdomen aches or feel a bit heavier at lower ab., or pulling sensation on the left overies.........My god, i'm crazzy because listening too much to my body.  I wish tomorrow when I wake up it's 12.1.09......and I'm done with 2ww.

[trying2conceive]

how are you feeling? i hope your side effects aren't too bad.

this morning i had an excruciating pain in my lower abdomen. at first, i was thinking, "this must be the cramp like pain women on here are talking about" - NOPE! it was that my body was trying to tell me (pardon my expression) you need to extract the excess waste. i thought for sure what i ate last night made me sick. i though it was diarrreah as well. i didn't know if i was gonna vomit or have a BM, it even made me sweat!
I felt so much better afterwards...i know TMI, right? I just notice lately when i'm gonna have a BM, my lower abdomen aches :0 Also, since yesterday I haven't felt as hungry like the past days when I was stuffing my face every chance I had. I can't wait for 12.01.09!!!

[babywanted556]

on ET, my progresterone is 150 but I don't have tender bb's, just little more sensitive, but it's gone now.  I used not to fit to any clothes till 2 days ago.
Not much symptom except backaches, a bit dizzy, and maybe cramps or stomach pain because of diahrea?  These happened on other positive or negative cycles as well........So I could not tell the difference....just try to stay positive.

I tested yesterday, and ofcourse BFN which can tell the trigger is out.  I'll start testing tomorrow till Monday, BW.

Good luck

[trying2conceive]

Today marks 4dpt. I can't believe that in less than a week I will be going in for BW. I'm not gonna lie, I have been wanting to purchase HPT to use this weekend once I hit the 7 or 8 day mark, but I will try and wait it out 'til 12.01.09

I haven't been feeling much of anything, except for some of the typical symptoms I get before AF (thirsty, sleepy & craving lemon w/ pineapple) Last night I was so sleepy, I didn't even stay up to watch the finale of one of my favorite shows. Dr. still has me on dexamethasone (steroid) and progesterone injections & suppositories. I did feel a bit light headed the last couple of nights, but again I'm contributing it to the meds/stims doing their thing. None of my clothes, except for pj's, fit me :( I realize I'm bloated from all the stims, but it's not easy walking around w/ jeans unbuttoned :0

I realize every woman's body reacts differently. I just wish I could get some signal that a little one is snuggling up in a safe, cozy spot. I'm not making much of tender bb's because I'm pretty sure the progesterone is causing it. Any input would be wonderful :)

[babywanted556]

hahaha.....I ate pineapple for couple days too.

[trying2conceive]

Mariana101: How are you? Don't be nervous, I'm sure everything will turn out just fine. I'm excited for you since Beta is right around the corner for you :) Remind your DH to be positive and he is after all, your backbone through out all this. I will continue to pray for you. Surround yourself by company, especially those who bring light and positive vibes to ya - it will help ease the nervousness.

AFM, I had my transfer yesterday. Everything went amazingly well. I had a 3dt with 4 embies.  On the way home from the procedure, I fell asleep. Got home, headed to bed and slept for at least 2-3 hours straight. I also started on progestrone suppositories last night - no fun :( This morning, I ate...and ate, then slept for about an hour or so ater that. I think the progesterone suppositories/injections is what's causing the fatigue. I told my DH, I will still take it easy, but I'm ready to get out of the house tomorrow to watch a movie or something. I'm becoming bored from watching so much t.v. I keep looking back at the pic my DR have me of the 4 embies and at the sonogram. I keep telling my DH my theory behind it all. He's very optomostic about the whole situation and even though this is our only chance, we realize the possibility of a negative outcome. I do know God is Great and he will only give us what we can truly handle ;)

p.s. I have been craving pineapple w/ lemon like you wouldn't believe. I know what you're thinking...WAAAAAAAAAAY too early for cravings my "amiga" but just thought I'd throw it in there :) I'm just gonna let time take its course and in less than 2 weeks, I'll know!

[Mariana101]

I AM SO NERVOUS!!!!! 10dpivf!!!! My hubby can't eve talk... if this one is negative he will die..... he already told me he will be on the floor devastated!!!! What am I supossed to do? OMG!!!! Just pray!

I will know on Wednesday.