Calling all Women of Strength...

[mommyin10]

A Strong Woman VS. A Woman Of Strength

    
A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape…
But a woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape.

A strong woman isn't afraid of anything…
But a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of fear.

A strong woman won't let anyone get the better of her…
But a woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future…
A woman of strength realiizes life's mistakes can also be unexpected blessings and capitalizes on them.

A strong woman wears a look of confidence on her face…
But a woman of strength wears grace.

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey…
But a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.


Author Unknown



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Michelle:  (Offer support & prayers!!!)

Leighanne: BFP - 28 weeks (u/s 12/6)
vortex: BFP - 19 weeks (u/s,12/2)
Joyce: BFP - 13 weeks (doc appt 12/16)
icierain: BFP
Jessie:  BFP 8 weeks
Armyprincess: BFP - 6? weeks
Guesito:  BFP 6 weeks (u/s Today!!!)

Stacey:  C6 (Retrieval 12/9)
kmcarino:  CD7
Mommyin09:  CD10
Candie:  CD11
Hoping4_2: CD12
ad_06: CD16
Hannah1505:  CD16
jmh2005:  CD16 (u/s today!)
wishandaprayer: CD19
naf38:  CD21
arlotheslug:  CD23
mamatina:  CD27

rachjas:  4dpo
Sexykeme78: 5dpo
pyar:  6dpiui
luvkayln: 6dpo
Shysana: 7dpo
LinaG:  10dpo (u/s of kidneys today)
Keyan:  12dpo
tracy4751: 14dpt (beta yesterday)
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jmh2005:  Oh, I'm so sorry!  I know how disappointing it is when things don't work out right.  Hopefully the Femara will help get this straight.  Hang in there!!!

ad_06:  I'm sorry for all you've gone through!  I'm sure it will be difficult to have to pay for your RE up front, so best wishes to you this month :)  

Shysana:  Feel better!  I've had a cold since last week & I'm getting closer to O.  It doesn't make it easy to be "in the mood" ;-)  Take care!

Guesito:  Great news!  I'm so happy for you & dh !!! :) I'm sure you're ecstatic to have seen the sac :)

Mamatina:  Good for you!  I'm so glad your body's getting back on track.  It's been a long road for you!

Candie:  Are you using opks yet?

Hannah:  Congrats on the new job :)

[dnikki0928]

Everyone: I started a new thread, it's still called "Calling All Woman of Strength (#2)...". I'm going to try my best to update everyone on there...

[mommyin10]

Good morning! I was running late this morning. I got up at my normal time, but had to leave early for my appt.  So, very little play time! :) Quick update: My u/s went well. I have a 16-mm follie on my right & then littler ones on the left. I still have neg opk's, so plenty of time for my  right side to grow :)

Luvkayln: So, what is considered "good" when they're measuring your lining? Mine was only 4. something?? Anyway, looks like we may be doing iui pretty close ;)

Michelle: Absolutely, stick around! I'm sure I speak for everyone else when I say that we all care about you & are praying for you! We all want to see you pull through this difficult time. Take care! :)

Pyar: That's great you got the go-ahead for ivf! I'm sure they don't want you to get your hopes up 'cause some people don't respond well to the meds. If it doesn't work the first time, they'll find the right dosage for you :) This is exciting!  I'm with you on eating right & exercising. I started the South Beach diet yesterday & we had wine twice over the holidays, but hadn't had any alcohol for 3 months before that!  Best wishes to you :)

Rachjas: Yes, I would call your RE just to get everything straight. I'm glad you're feeling better! Hang in there! :)

Dnikki: I saw your note, but I'm checking I'm with my cell, so I can't
navigate well from work! :)

Sorry I didn't update everyone. As I said to dnikki, it's hard to navigate with my phone. Definitely no copying & pasting!  Have a great day, ladies! :)

[mrspace24]

Hey everyone!

Okay, I'm having a much better day today!  Tomorrow is my last day of clomid for this cycle.  I think it'll be okay.  And honestly right now...if it's not..that's okay too.  I just have a much more positive outlook right now.  It'll all work out.  

michelle- I have experience with antidepressants, and I'm on Zoloft also.  Zoloft is pretty new to me but it's actually going pretty well.  It's pretty mild compared to some but it really does help.  I've battled depression for 11 years now, mostly caused my sexual abuse from my father that just made me spiral out of control.  I because this terrible person.  I lied compulsively (because my stories were better than reality) and I suffered from terrible self esteem.  To this day.... there are still days where I struggle to find one single thing that I like about myself. But I'm working on it.  And it's gotten so much better.  Have your DH help monitor you.  For me... I can't always tell/remember if I have emotional outbursts or changes in my attitude.  Monitor how the antidepressants make you feel.  If they make you feel loopy, disconnected...or anything like that, I'd ask to switch meds.  Paxil is another one that worked well for me. I just know that I always hated feeling loopy or out of it.  Please please please, know that I, for one, am here to talk if you EVER need it.  I know that these things can seem to weigh us all down. But don't worry. We're all here to pull you back up.  Stay strong.

luvkayln- HAPPY DANCE TIME!!!   I'm so excited that everything is going so well for you.  I have such a good feeling about it. Please keep me informed because I'm already going crazy wanting to know if it worked for you!!!

stacey- I hope all is going well for you!  I can't wait until your ultrasound.  

dnikki- Thanks for the kind words.  I try to surround myself with positive people these days, but sometimes people surprise you.  I haven't been talking to that girl at all lately.  There are a lot of people I'm actually not talking to now. DH and I's best friends just found out that they are pg just after our wedding.  She's 20 wks now and they just found out they are having a little girl.  Well, DH told them about what these girls kept saying to me.  Then they came over to visit on Sunday and she had ultrasound pics.  SHE WOULDN'T LET ME SEE THEM!  She said that she didn't want to rub it in my face at all and that she felt so bad that we're going through this and that they are having a baby.  Silly girl.  She was so sweet about it.  I told her that people who are pg dont' bother me.  It's the people who sit there and tell me stupid **** that bother me. I had another girl last night tell me that if I focused more on my weight loss then I'd be blessed with a baby.  It just aggrivates me. Oh well!  I'm so glad I have you all to vent to and for support.

mommyin09- How is everything going?  

[luvkayln]

Michelle- We will help you get through this! Please don't stop posting here! We all care about you, and I know talking  about it helps and we are here to listen and support you! I did take antidepressants for a few weeks after having Kayln, but then I stopped them. Sorry, I can't exactly remember what I took, maybe zoloft?? Anyway, it took a couple weeks to start working, and it did help while I was taking it. I'm glad you are getting help, and I really think you are right to wait until you feel the time is right to start trying again. You need time to heal physically and emotionally, and I know it'll happen again for you, so for now take time to heal. I'll keep you in my prayers! ((Hugs))

rachjas- Thank you! I'm so excited too! :) The injections actually don't hurt at all. One night they did, but that's b/c you can't keep giving yourself the shot in the same place b/c the injection site gets sore after a few shots there! So if you just rotate injection sites, you'll be fine! :) I'm glad you are thinking about going on them. They obviously do their job! :) I never thought I would have 8 eggs!! Good luck!

Pyar- That's great you got the go ahead to do ivf for next cycle! Woo hoo! That's so exciting!! Good luck! :)

Mommyin09- Good luck at your appointment today! Hoping you see 1 big, round beatiful follie!! :) I'll be checking in for your update!!

mrspace- Hope you have a better day at work today! :)

[leighanne143]

michelle- the therapy really helps.  i agree about just waking up and feelign like a totally different person.  after my 2nd MC, i had to see a therapist because i could not feel like normal leighanne no matter what i did and it help because it was a safe place to get everything out and not be judged in any way.  zoloft and prozac are 2 good meds to start off at a low dose with that can help at a very low dose.

[pyar]

stacey i'm glad you're feeling more positive this is your time now try to enjoy it but i do understand your concernc i think i would be the same

mrspace OMG with friends like that who needs enemies sorry if that sounds harsh but this journey is hard enough you really don't need that

luvkayln woo your are responding so well i've got a really good vibe for you fingers crossed
michelle i can't speak for everyone but i think yes keep posting here even though you are taking time out from ttc the support here will all help towards you feeling better and able to try again when you feel ready to we all have to deal with the mental aspect of all of this and it can gat too much for anyone i applaud you in that you are putting things on hold to sort yourself out to be the best mom you can be

dnikki i have my fingers crossed that you have eggs on both sides sorry i can't help with info on swimmers
mommyin09 how's things is it your u/s today let us know how it goes
i just got the call and got the go ahead for ivf next cycle so thats feb only thing is they kept saying not to get my hopes up but they are going to put me on the max dose 600ml and if they have to we can convert to iui so i'm going to do everything poss to prepare my body and make it as healthy as i can so no alcohol more healthy eating excercise also i started on dhea hopefully things will work out i'm pleased to get the go ahead but so anxious now

[Michelleinhawaii]

Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers...I need a lot of them right now.  I am in such a dark place.  I am getting help, I saw a psychologist who does therapy with people who are recieving treatment in the hospital and he referred me to a psychiatrist who he works with to go over possible medications I might be interested in taking.  He suggested Zoloft for the depression, anxiety, and OCD (obsessive, disturbing thoughts).  I think I am going to try the medication along with therapy and see if it makes me feel any better. Does anyone have any experience taking antidepressents?  I am a little nervous.

I never even saw this coming...it was like I woke up one day and literally "cracked up".  It's crazy how our minds work.  I guess I can take the next year getting my mental health back before I can think about becoming a mommy.  The doctor said he would give us clearance to try again 6 months after my HCG goes to 0, but I figure we'll just try agin when I feel better.  Just when you think the worst happened?!?!?

Let me know if you would prefer I didn't post here.  I'm a little out of the TTC mind frame for now, but it is something that will keep me going.  

[rachjas0623]

ohh.. and what is femara like? How does it compare to Clomid.  I took two cycles of Clomid (1 on 50mg and the other 100mg, CD 3-7).  When I take the Femara it will be CD 3-7 (2 pills per days each being 2.5mg). Is that a common dosage?

[rachjas0623]

luvkayln- I am super excited for you! I am glad you are responding well to the injections.  Good luck with the trigger tmw.  Do the injections hurt? We may be looking into that in the coming cycles...

ALL - Thank you for you support last week during my surgery. I am finally feeling half way o.k.  I started taking my Metformin again Friday.  It made me really sick Saturday and Sunday.  I think it was from where I didn't take it all for 5 days, then when I started taking it again I went back to the 3 a day.  So, Sunday.. I only took 1.  I felt fine today.  So, I think I am going to ease back into it... take 1 tonight... maybe 2 for a few nights.. and so on. Do you think that is o.k? Last Monday, during my pre-op appt. my RE gave me a perscription for Femara to take this coming cycle.  I was on BC.. last pill was Saturday.. so AF should be here tmw or so.  However, I am still bleeding from the surgery.  So, I am having a hard time telling if it's my AF or not.  Plus, I think I remember RE telling my in recovery to not take the meds. after all this cycle due to the surgery being soooo invasive.  I really should just call them tmw, huh?  Anyway, I go in Friday for my post-op appt.  Even if I can't take the femara this cycle.. I am excited.  You never know what that little cleaning out could do... : )

[luvkayln]

Stacey- Thanks! I hope it works for me too! :) I'm ready to make Kayln a big sister!!! :) And yes, I love how quick my cycles go with these injections!! Even if this cycle doesn't work, I've got 3 cycles worth of meds sitting in my fridge right now! At least I know this stuff works, and hopefully it does the trick for us!

Mommyin09- Thanks! I'm super excited too! :) I'll be crossing my fingers that you get your +ve opk by Wednesday so we can have our iui's together! Is dh feeling better? I hope so!

[Stacey1718]

Luvkayln - That is great!!  Don't you love how fast the injections make your cycle go?  I would always trigger around day 12...13 at the latest.  You will absolutely get at least one baby.  Get ready to be a mommy!!  (you said that to me and it brought me a ton of luck!!)

Mommyin09 - Good luck with your u/s tomorrow!!!  I am sending good follie vibes your way!  And that makes sense about the sauerkraut.  I had no idea it was part of a New Year tradition!  

Dnikki - Follies rupturing on both sides are definitely a great sign.  Good luck!!!  The tww will fly by.  Sorry I don't know about the swimmers - my assumption is that it means both good motility and morphology.  Assuming dh has a good count to begin with, 20% should be more than enough healthy swimmers.  

[mommyin10]

luvkayln:  Yay!  Great news :)  How exciting that your iui is so soon!  I bet we'll be really close this time.  I'm so excited for you!

dnikki:  Yes, I will go straight to work from my appt, but I'll check in asap.  That's great that you're officially in the tww!  Congrats & best wishes :)

[luvkayln]

dnikki- Thanks! :) No, you definately have to be monitered b/c it's such a potent drug and b/c it's a straight follicle stimulating hormone, and you don't want to overstimulate. They also do bloodwork to check your estrogen levels each visit as well to make sure you're at the right dose. I've only had 3 u/s this time, and that's just 1 more than I had with clomid so it's not that bad. But I'm only CD 10 and will be ready to trigger on CD 11! That's so early, but i'm so happy i responded so well to the meds!! :) Out of these 8 eggs I better at least get 1 baby! :) Good luck nikki! I hope you ovulated from both sides, that will dramatically increase your chances if you have an egg waiting on each side!! :)

[dnikki0928]

Luvkayln: AWESOME!!! Congrats on all the follies :-) Good luck with your IUI - it all sounds promising... I hope this is your month!! If I do injectables next month, do I have to be monitored by u/s (probably a dumb Q, but I don't know...)? To save some $ I was hoping I could just do my monitor.... idk...

Babymama: So sorry about your bfn...just try and hang in there for next cycle. This is OUR YEAR!!! All of us on here now will get our BFP's!!! ((Hugs))

Mrspace: I'm sorry your having a tough time - it's completely understandable :-( Screw those friends who rub it in... I have family that does (did) it to me. My brother and SIL had gotten p/g and everyone was sooo happy  (I was too, but you know....) Well, at her 4 month u/s they find out they are having TWINS...I couldn't freaking believe it... So if that wasn't enough - my family wanted to have a get together, that was fine, till I had a m/c and I couldn't bear to go... I could already hear my family - look at her belly, I can't believe she's having twins, Maybe she'll have the first girl blah blah blah. I didn't tell anyone about my m/c, then I finally told my sis, and she completely understood why I wasn't going.... It still frustrates me, but hang in there hon. We are ALL here for you. ((Big Hugs))

Mommyin09: Good luck at your u/s tomorrow :-) I hope you have a big follie in there!!! Let us know when you get back!!

I know a follie on the right ruptured and more than likely the left too... Yesterday both sides were achy and today I have been achy on and off on the right side... Keeping my fingers crossed!  I have sort of a dumb Q: If the RE says DH has only 20% "Normal" swimmers, does that mean 20% normal morphology or 20% normal motility of a combo of both....Thanks!!

Much hugs, love, luck and SSBD to all :-)

[luvkayln]

The nurse finally called! :) Trigger tomorrow night, and iui on Thursday morning! Yay! That makes me so happy, b/c now all my eggs will catch up! She even said that since my u/s was so early this morning, that my follies have probably already grown 1-2 mm! I have so much hope now!!!! :)

[leighanne143]

hannah- oddly enough the first major symptom i had with my second MC pregnancy was severe constipation.  Not saying that you will have a MC, just saying it is a sign because HCG can severely constipate you.  hope this is a good sign:)

Arlotheslug- sorry you are feeling down.  the best thing to do is take the time you need and pamper yourself.  i know its easier said than done but it does help.

luvkalyn- WOO HOO for the mature follies.  congrats.  i hope this month or next month work out, preferably this month.

mrspace- F those so called friends.  pardon my bad language but i hated after my MC's when someone would rub it in my face.  I know ti is part of life to have pregnant women around you but there is a nice way to be tactful about it.  I always try to be tactful about my pregnancy because i never know who i might be talkign to that had many losses like i did or is having a hard time TTC, so i try to never be over amped and very mindful.

[mommyin10]

Babymama: Sorry about the bfn :( Hang in there!

Stacey: That would be distracting to be at home & you have so many exciting things to think about! ;) I think Arlotheslug was referring to sauerkraut. We don't eat pork & kraut, but my mil makes sauerkraut at every special occasion :)

Arlotheslug: Am I right, you're referring to sauerkraut? Do you have it all through the holidays or just Christmas & New Year's?

Luvkayln: I hope you have some news soon. I'll check in later :)

[hannah1505]

i knew the doctor was full of it he was just a temp soctor who couldnt speak english very well he never new me he jus sed test if af dont come he was a big fat fool wait till i see my doc she is bad but not stupic oh well cd 26 dnt no if i d we will see x
been bding lots lol

Michelle your in my thoughts xx

[Stacey1718]

Thanks for your comments.  I do feel better and have started to relax!  I was all geared up to get back into work today but guess what??  It is really hard!  I am too distracted plus I am working from home...so it makes it to easy to do other things!

Luvkayln - Woo hooo hoo!!!  You are going to have a litter just like your RE said!  :)  What a nice surprise.  That is awesome.  I assume you will take a trigger shot??  With all of those follies rupturing over a short period, the timing will be on!  You will be certain to catch an egg or two at the perfect moment!  Very exciting indeed!! :)

Mommyin09 - Looking forward to your u/s tomorrow!!  Let's start the new year off right with a nice b-ball follie ok??  Exciting times!!

Mrspace - I agree with the others, that girl is not your "friend" to say something like that.  You need to be around supportive people if they know what you are going through.  I find that it is nice to have friends that don't know anything, so when I go out with them, it is an escape from the ttc world.  My handful of friends who know were chosen very carefully!!  I did not want everyone to know because I could not handle inquiries month after month after month.  Glad af stopped and you are feeling better physically.  Now try to get in a positive frame of mind to ttc this month!  You have a great chance and you have been pg before.  It's just a matter of time!

Candie - Glad you had such a great Birthday!!!  The big 2-9 huh???  WOW!  That sounds very young to me :)  I just turned 35 my dear!!!  I have a lot of hope that you will get a nice birthday surprise at the end of the week!  :)  Come on BFP!!  I have a question for you and Arlotheslug - what is pork and kraut?  I don't think I have ever had that!

[BabyMamma0]

ooopsy i ment temp spike lol -

[BabyMamma0]

hello all :o)  

did my HPT this morning and BFN  :o(  Got a temp sike though this morning x wondering if these internet cheapies are a good test, ive had evap lines - think its back to digital next month :o)

[mommyin10]

Happy 3 Kings Day to you!  Sounds like you've got a lot more celebrating to do this week!!!  I, too, am jealous, but happy for you :-)  Enjoy!

[mommyin10]

luvkayln:  Thanks for the note.  I'm glad to hear from you before leaving for work 'cause I know it's gonna be a busy day!  I'm so very happy for you!!!  Everything looks great so far & you should know this afternoon when your iui is set; right?  Will you do a trigger shot?  I'm sure you'll be cleaning your house with a big smile on your face today! :-)  I'm glad it'll be busy today & tomorrow is my u/s, then Thurs-Fri I'm off work.  So, this week should fly by...  Hopefully dh feels better soon!

mrspace:  Anyone who makes such a rude comment to you shouldn't be considered your friend.  Sorry, but that's my opinion.  She sounds very immature & you should be surrounding yourself with a positive, uplifting support system!  :) You know, dh & I met in high school.  We dated 10 years before we got married.  So, my "plan" was to have a baby at the next ten-year mark. We've been together since I was 15, so married at 25 & waited to have kids 'cause we were getting our careers going, etc.  So, I thought wouldn't it be perfect to have our first baby when I'm 35?!  I guess we can't plan everything 'cause I'm gonna be 37 in June!  Our time will come, just hang in there!!! :)

Arlotheslug:  I'm sorry you're feeling down :(  The holidays are really tough.  They really make you think, especially for those of us who so wanted to be pregnant by Christmas.  That negative beta was my hardest blow yet! :(  Stay strong, my friend!  You have such an amazing dh & I agree that good things are in store for you two!  Let us know what you decide & give Alice lots of love for me!

Candie:  I'm glad you had a nice birthday! :)  I want to see Marley & Me, too, but I think I'll read the book first.  That's a great idea 'cause we won't see it til it comes out on DVD anyway.  I think I'll ask my friend at work if I can borrow it.  I'll be hoping & praying that you get that belated b-day gift!!! :)

Hannah:  I hope you feel better.  I agree, that's odd that the doc would say those are pregnancy symptoms, but think it's too early to take a blood test?!  That doesn't make sense.  Have you tried an hpt?  Take care!!!

[luvkayln]

mrspace- You sound like me on NYE! lol Good times! :) Gosh, I'm so sorry about your "friend"  rubbing that in your face! That's terrible! You know, karma comes back so she shouldn't be talking like that, b/c you just never know what could happen! Pregnancy is very scary, and you and me both know the worst side of it! I'm glad you're already thinking about your options if the clomid doesn't work. I really think you should move on to injections if the clomid doesn't work this time around. I mean, yes, they do cost a hell of a lot more than the clomid, but just look  at how many eggs you make thus improving your chance for pregnancy!! I couldn't believe I saw 8 mature eggs at my u/s today! I'm staying very hopeful, and your encouragement only helps! Thanks! :) I'm glad your doc is back, and you can find out exactly what that was all about last week! I would be on the phone calling now, because that was a bunch of BS all the way!! I sent you a note, but I hope your day gets better! :)