HOLY POO! You will NOT believe this!!!! POSITIVE TODAY!

[scienceteacher79]

As you all know - 2 weeks ago I was getting very very fainbt positives. Started bleeding 2 saturdays ago (brown and weird looking). Went to have my blood test done almost 2 wks ago EXACTLY! "Less than one" was my beta test. So, after all the money and pain, we lost another baby - or so I THOUGHT! Now, I had a little period the few days after I started bleeding - brownish, reddish, chunky (sorry - TMI!) - nothing like a normal period but whatever. Anyway, I finally had sex with DH again Saturday (yesterday) and started to spot (brown - dark, no red) which is completely weird. I never spot in between periods. Anyway, i had one digital test left and said "what the heck". I had literally JUST peed 5 mins before and managed to sqeeze out a few drops (like 5! haha) into a cup and stuck the test in. It started blinking so I jumped in the shower and put it on the outside ledge. AND THEN I SAW IT! YES+ IT SAID YES+!! So, i screamed for DH, tried to explain it to him and then started to laugh hysterically. IT WAS ALL I COULD DO!! HAHAHAHAH! So, of course I ran to walmart and got more tests!! HAHAH!! They are all positive! Not as dark as I feel they should be for almost 6 wks so I am not thinking this is going to work out to be a good scenerio BUT that is the darkest tests I HAVE EVER HAD!! HAHAHAH - I can not believe this. I am going to the doc at 8am sharp and hopefully will know something by 3 or 4pm tomorrow.

It is either going to be: remnants of something that tried to grow, an ectopic (god I hope not - I only have one good unblocked tube), or a miracle baby - sweet Lord! I am so freaked out right now!!!

Any thoughts?

[scienceteacher79]

hahaha - it is but I didn't mean it to be :0 ) hahaha

[usuk]

was that a pun???? "enema" and "crap over soon".  

[scienceteacher79]

hcg went from 43 to 38 - wow three whole points in TWO WEEKS! I told them it wouldn't work!! So, D and C with a laproscropy (spelling?) on Friday. yay (sarcastic)... and the best part: I have to give myself an enema the night before! WHAT? EWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is nasty! Not looking forward to that but at least all this crappppp should be over soon :)

[usuk]

you are right. to make you wait is just adding insult to injury. but you are on top of it and know what to look out for. so you are not taking this lying down. (ewww sorry that sounds kinky) what i mean is that you are not just trusting doctors and twiddling your thumbs waiting to bleed. thinking of you....

[Verysoon]

I am praying for you!

[scienceteacher79]

I left for vacation early so I didn't get my bloodwork done (stupid to spend 30 bucks everytime they wanted me in there just to watch my levels fall)! I am scheduled to go in tomorrow. I have had no bleeding, no cramps, nothing! I knew the stupid shots wouldn't work. I think i was at 43 when they gave me the shots. Surely after almost 2 weeks the levels SHOULD have fallen enough to bleed. I already made an appt for Monday with my OB/GYN. I do not want another round of shots and more waiting. My hcg levels didn't fall right with the first pregnancy and ended up practically peeing blood it was pouring out of me so much, and ended up with an emergency d and c because there was (and I quote) "so much tissue in there". i just want this crappppp over with. Is that too much to ask? I mean REALLY! I have been through enough these two months. So, if they are not going down or I don't start bleeding and getting rid of the tissue, I will be begging for a d and c from my OB (I don't want my fertility doc TOUCHING my insides - he doesn't even get blood tests right, don't want him messing with my junk!). I am just waiting for some raging infection to set in and scar me for life or something - that would be the icing on the cake. Then if I get the d and c (which may have been what clogged the first tube - we don't know - its a theory), I will have to have an HSG again before we start TTC again because of the possibility of scarring the only open tube I have....UGHHHHHHHHHHH!!! We will see tomorrow what the blood test says. Hugs to all my girls -

Jen