Seeing things

[scienceteacher79]

Ok - POAS - FRER. I don't think it is a faint BFP - I just think I am seriously wishing it was there. I think I am making it up. I swear. It is like there is really nothing there but I keep wishing it was so I think I see things...I hate this. I hate the whole TTC thing. I am so HOT and miserable from the progesterone. I just walked outside and almost started crying from the heat (I think it is around 90 - which is cool for SC!). I stood in front of the fans at Walmart last night for a good 20 minutes while DH looked around. This progesterone is CRUEL!

So, bottom line - I think it is BFN - but of course my mind is making me see the faintest of faintest lines... Yeah - I am officially on the "crazy" boat. UGH!

[scienceteacher79]

I won't know until Wednesday afternoon. I have my beta late (becasue I can't get out of school - so I have to go after) at 4pm. So, of course I will go bonkers til then! I am 11 DPO - I would think we have already implanted by now... UGH! Going nuts!

[kikicoates78]

What is your DPO? Cramps could be from over doing it in the yard!!!! Or implantation???:) That would be good cramps right! Let us know ASAP tomarrow afternoon!

[scienceteacher79]

Cramping - OUCH!!!

[scienceteacher79]

God I missed you - everything has been so wrong without you to holla at! :) I think we may have to call the rehab line...I feel it coming on.

Some good things today - I feel blah and I have (TMI WARNING) diarrhea. This is actually good news because I usually have constipation after O until right before AF shows. Its too early to be getting from Af (I think) - I had this before with my BFP.

I keep staring at that DAMMMNNNNN stick. I even did the inverted colors thing on MS paint. When I did that DH screams "I see something now!" - I didn't. I saw it better on the FRER in person. I swear I am totally seeing things.

Finally broke down and told DH I have the Beta tomorrow afternoon when I didn't think I saw anything on the stick this morning. I see it sometimes and then I turn the stupid thing to the side a bit and its gone. I am telling you - I am going POAS bonkers! HELP!!

SUE - CALL POAS REHAB! HURRY!! :)

HUGS and love to all my girls - without you I would be even crazier (and yes, that is possible!)

Jen

[blessedmomof3]

Well, good luck hun. I realy hope you get your BFP!!!!!!

[SueGre]

Dude! I so totally want you to be pregnant! Wednesday seems like a million years away (sorry!). But you could probably get your own BFP by then with a FRER test.

I am soooooo tooooootally crossing EVERYTHING!!!

L&H,

Sue

[scienceteacher79]

Digital aren't as sensitive as FRER. My FRER picked up at 3.99 and 11.4 HCG. A digital won't pick up that early so I won't waste my money. I go tomorrow for my hCG beta test in the afternoon, so I will have an answer by wed. afternoon.

[blessedmomof3]

Have you tried a digital? At least that way there will be no question about the line.

[scienceteacher79]

POAS. Still the shadow looking line - kinda depressed. Should have been a least a bit clearer by now on a FRER. So, I think I am seeing things :)

[adaba]

just got back from the doctor had a blood test and it came out negative well then till my next cycle then wish all ttc good luck

[leighanne143]

i bought a 5 apck of clear blue digitals from wlamart for 18 dollar which is pretty cheap for them.  no more tkaing tests apart, it does not make them any more easy to read, it damages them completely and can give you a false reading.  try again with first morning urine.  the earliest i got my BFP was 9dpo.  so i would wait another day or 2 to help not get bummed out.

[adaba]

hello, have u tried testing today? tested all weekend but BFN tried this morning seem am seeing a line but may be i already know were the line should be so nervous suppose to see my period tomorrow.9/2 wish u best of luck

[bree08]

I hope your not seeing things and I hope you have a big fat BFP when you wake up tomorrow. Good luck :)

[scienceteacher79]

If it is barely registering on a FRER (which picked up an HCG of 3.99 and 11.4 for me before), I feel like it is a waste to use my digital. When I get a definate BFP on a FRER I will use a digital - those things are expensive :) Hee hee!

I hope this is it too but I feel like I am setting myself up for failure. Boo hoo!

[Latrice414]

I thnk u shud get the digital since u thnk yur seeing things, this way u get yes/no can't turn a no into a yes:) I hope this is a bfp 4 u

[scienceteacher79]

Peed on another - a cheap knock off version of FRER I got off ebay a while back. Still see the grayish line. I don't know if I see it because I know where the freakin thing is supposed to be or if it means anything! UGH!!!!!!! Got the 2WW psycho-ness!

[scienceteacher79]

too late :)

[leighanne143]

no do not pull it apart.  do another one first thing tomorrow morning.  or hold your urine for a while and do another one tonight.  you ruin them if you take them apart.

[scienceteacher79]

Thanks Trish!

[paranoidpatty]

I know your chart looks excellent (looks like the beginnings of triphasic).  I sooo hope this is your BFP!!  I really think it is.  

Check back in as soon as you take another test and we'll be waiting to hear.

Super dooper sticky baby dust!!

TRISH

[scienceteacher79]

The $ tree ones never seem to work for me. I might go get some just so I don't feel bad peeing on them :)

[cure65roses]

I'd say get yourself some of those $tree cheapies.  They are sensitive (25) and work great.  Hey it's only a dollar - what have you got to lose?

[scienceteacher79]

Yeah - I am doing the back and forth thing right now. Just trying to not think about it. I am cleaning and helping DH with the yard (UGH - sweating to DEATH!!!! Stupid progesterone!!!!)

The FRER Gold is digital! Expensive but so cool. Gives a yes/no answer. Just can't justify the cost... I am a teacher - I be po'. :)

[Tanker Chic]

Oh, what is this new FRER gold?? I haven't heard of that...

If there is any question I usually open it and look at it under differents lights... DH are NEVER any help on these issues... they will barely give it a glance and say... "I don't see anything"  

I would spend the rest of the day going back in forth in my mind,,, one minute convinced it is BFP the next convinced it is BFN and then POAS tomorrow and see how it goes..  :)

Hope you get your definite faint BFP tomorrow...