Thanks you all for your answers it is appreciated. I think I know deep down there is something wrong but just cant admit it! I shall make an appoinment to see my GP, and take it from there.
maybe your tired and saving the energy for the baby. You want alone time at work just go to work and do the job is better anyway mixing pleasure and business is not a good call anyhow
Are you showing signs of depression or is something else going on?
Having been a working mom of 2 small children I can empathise with wanting to be by yourself. I'm sure those of your coworkers who are moms can empathise too.
For what it's worth: For me work was sometimes the only break I got to be an adult and do adult things without some small child "needing" mommy. It was a stress relief to remember there was more to me than just my Mommy status. While I love and adore my children and love being their mom, I also need to be me - a whole adult woman.
I hope this helps.
I have spend some time going thrum your posts.
I can only say that you show clear signs of depression and anxiety disorders in one form or another.
I need to tell you that women are most likely to develop those especially after birth and maternity leave. My stating that, i do not say you are crazy, i am just saying that for carious, hormonal, bio chemical and stress related factors, a change occurs.
Because of that, i suggest meeting with a psychiatrist (not a psychologist).
He will help you regain your former self, putting first your chemistry in the right place and than you will regain the personality that you were and enjoy life as you use to.
This is the best advice i can give you based on the research i made.
I honestly hope that you will make this step.
BR: Sash83 at Open Consult Portal Europe