Okay, so I'll be getting a checkup on the fourth, and I've got some scarring on my thigh she hasn't seen before. She's extremely, EXTREMELY thorough--she won't miss them. They are very light and superficial, except for three that did turn into keloid scars. I'm going into school. Dorming, I can't wait. I've had light visits with therapists, all short lived and something I decided wasn't for me.
Well, fast forward years, I met someone who turned out to be AWFUL. But I was scared to say anything to anyone, and I was afraid of them, and it was awful and I turned to the aforementioned self harm. It was brief, because I looked at what I was doing and was like, "Okay, this needs to end." And I stopped that and I left them (forever). It's in the past. But I haven't seen my doctor since then, and therefore, they haven't seen the scars. They're healed completely, and I don't intend on making any more, but I'm terrified to show them! I figured I could just leave some shorts on. (She tells me to go down to my underwear, but I'm sure some shorts would not be awful?) But part of me would rather just let her know instead of having to worry about hiding them every time I go. The only thing being that I'm terrified she'll alert my school that I've got emotional problems or something and I either won't be able to go, or they'll want me in for appointments or something all the time. I don't want my file tagged as a problem case... I just want to go to my school happy, healthy, and ready for anything. I don't want it to get messed up because I was really low a year or two back. I'm fine now, and I'm scared it's going to screw everything up.
So I'm asking anyone who's had experience with this, or any professionals who would know: Should I hide it, or show her? They're healed and it's in the past, so will she flag me going into school as needing help?