My husband of 26 years passed away unexpectedly at age 56 on 01-13-17. I left for work kissed him bye and I never saw him again. He went to look at a job in a rural area and apparently had a heart attack. He had no health issues, no heart problems we were aware of. I found him by using the "find my iPhone" app. When he never came home the next morning I contacted the authorities. I am beyond grieving. Our grown daughters are hurting, granddaughters range from 18 to 3. The 3year old asks constantly for Papa and I just tell her Papa gone bye-bye. It just breaks my heart but I don't think she's old enough to understand Heaven. I am employed in a position of tremendous authority and they depend/expect me to perform. I have to work, there was no huge life insurance or anything. My question is when will I be able to look at a picture of him, hear a song, go through a day that I'm not crying and feeling so alone. I think I was in shock at first but as time goes on and everyone around me has gone on with their lives I'm having a difficult time. I don't like to talk about it because I start the ugly face crying. Will it always be this way for me? I am 61 years old can hardly remember my life without him. Will I grieve forever and die lonley and alone?