1 year ago today a classmate, a friend, died in an accident. I knew him as a friend but my boyfriend was absolute best friends with him ever since they were babies. He is a lot stronger than me, and has a really good coping method and hes doing really well....the problem is...im not. I am struggling so much...all day today i have been all of the sudden breaking down crying hystericly and my boyfriend hugs and comforts me...but it should be the other way around! I try so hard to be strong for him...but i cant do it! All year long I have put everything into protecting him for being sad and being for him when he is having a rough day. but i feel like all the emotions i have been holding in have been coming out this week...and its definitly the wrong week for that to happen...I just cant get past the fact that right now..at 2:07pm...he was being rushed to the hospital and being resessitated...and even though it would be a success and he would be alive again...he died again about 20 minutes later....i know hes in a better place..i know hes always in my heart and stuff...but i cant get past how sudden his death is...and worst of all i cant be there to comfort my boyfriend tonight because im going to a soccer game dedicated to him with my freinds, while he is going to the boy who died's house with his friends....i know he needs to be with his friends and i understand that completely...but im sooo worried about him! but when im with him..i just feel like im a burden...i dont know what to do! how can i help him????