Hi Doctor :
First of all I feel very shame for post this but my mental disorder (OCD) is talking to me again . .Last July I went to party and I was drunk as hell , then I got blacked out and I recall nothing at all coming back to my home . The only I know is I took a cab with one of my best friends who live close to me in my same neighborhood ,he told me that because I repeat that I recall nothing,zero . I know by my friend that cab left him first so I stayed with the taxi driver alone way to my home . Next morning my wife was very angry with me because I got that drunk and because she awaked because of a conversation between me and taxi driver outside my house , she told me that the taxi driver was annoyed and told her that I couldn´t even say my address and that we were spinning around the neighborhood several minutes so then he asked her for the money because also he said that I didnt have , when she returned with the money the guy had left .Next day I started inmediately to think "what about if this guy is a pervert and raped me ??" Why he didn´t wait for the money? anyway I got forget that episode because my wife (who is aware of my OCD told me that she talked with the guy and he looked a trustable person,
Well,days ago I was having dinning with my brother and talking about black outs and he told me then laughing " Be careful with blackouts because even men could be raped when they are blacked out , I know some stories about that because a friend of mine is detective and he told me that sometimes guys got to the office detective because of weird sensations on their anus after a blackout" that conversation turn on my OCD again !! , dear doctor :
1-Should I test for HIV . I never felt pain on my anus after that episode only an internal haemorrhoid but months later that drunk night
2-Could a straight man like me being raped and never be aware of that?
3-Should I forget this episode? .
Thanks and happy new year.