Hello, the anxiety has bothered me for a few months. I have the fear about one year ago, and I thought I have overcome it, but now I have problem again.
In February this year, I had unprotected oral sex with a girl. I licked her vagina for less than 30 secs and she also gave me blow job for a few minutes. What's worse is I found there were some cracks on my lips the next morning with bleed stains on my lips (hopefully they are mine.....). I know the risk of oral sex is relatively low, but since I found the bleeding cracks on my lips, I became super anxious.
The next day I asked the girl to use Oraquick to test her status. It was negative and she said she didn't have any sex activity for more than three month, so I felt a little relieved.
After that we still talk to each other and I was hoping to ask her for another test after 3 months, but now she suddenly disappeared and blocked me maybe because I said something wrong or some other reasons. Although she took Oraquick before, but I know there are chances of getting false negative result if we didn't conduct the test correctly or if she is in the window period.
The worries have messed up my life and I couldn't focus on any of my work. I don't know her real hiv status and I am worried about whether the cracks on my lips matters.