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I had a wedding on Saturday night that I drank way to much . I am concerned something may have happened to me n my fear would be being raped during that night and not remembering it . I left the wedding at 2am and took a cab to a strip club . I am a male btw . I remember taking a lap dance and then just standing around for a bit until 3:10 where a cab picked me up to go home . I do remember getting into the cab and then I don’t remember anything else besides being in my backyard talking to my brother . I checked my phone in the am to verify times n it looks like my Uber dropped me off and charged my card at 3:25am which sounds about right from the distance we had to drive . Not remembering things really scares me . I been reading online and ppl say u would of remembered n u would feel it if u got analy penetrated . My anxious thoughts are now taking the best of me n I keep thinking about how my anus feels . I do feel maybe like an itchy feeling but idk if my mind is making things up . I know this all sounds stupid but I feel like an idiot bc I let my guard down . Any thoughts would help . When I asked my brother how I was when he saw me at the end of the night he said clean but stmbling n drunk . I keep thinking maybe the cab driver raped me or someone on the street . I had all my belongings still with me . I apologize in advanced for this craziness but it’s bothering me .
I have slight pain in my anus which I suppose is from diareah I had or my mind manifesting the pain . I was drunk but I keep trying to tell myself I would of known . Apologies for posting again I just worry n keep thinking about it
Drinking to excess like that is never good for you and should be stopped. Imagining that the cab driver raped you and you would not know is irrational thinking. Your bad cycle of worrying should be evaluated by a doctor so that you can get help for that.
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Thank you for your response . I worry a lot and I was really drunk n not remembering things is very unsettling . Thanks for your input .
This is clearly irrational thinking and is not an HIV issue. Please seek a therapist to help you overcome your irrational thoughts.
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I would obviously of remembered I’m hoping and felt something . Thank you for your response . I had a bad cycle of worrying lately and I shouldn’t of drank that much n caused these anxious thoughts .
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