Hi,
As a hetero man I once, 6 days ago, had an potential unsafe experience with another man. I was at a massage parlor and that ended with me (wearing a eye mask for the light) getting a handjob and after that a blowjob without condom (both nicely asked before by the masseur).
So as soon as I went back home I started to freak out: did I get exposed to HIV by the blowjob? The last few days I literally spent hours and hours on this forum to find answers if receiving oral sex can cause HIV (reading the answer here was calming me a lot). And to get more confirmation on this I made a phone call to the Aids-fonds (Netherlands), they could also guarantee me, like mentioned here on the forum many times, from receiving oral sex without condom HIV is not a risk (the person on the phone verified many times).
After that phone call I felt really relieved because the risk was zero. But within minutes paranoid thoughts kicked in: could the masseur, while I was getting the handjob (when I was blind folded with the mask) climbed up to massage table (the table was setup in height by the masseur once in the beginning for the massage) and rubbed my penis to his anus, or even penetrate him? I'm quite convinced I would have noticed that or had to feel that on my penis, but still I'm not getting away with the idea.
So my question: I think I should stop think like this and continue with my life or is that a real scenario?
By the way: it really helps for me the read the posts on this forum, thanks all!