I have continuously read this forum over and over again trying to calm the fears I am facing from a recent sexual encounter I had. First let me say that I am an extremely healthy, active, 18 year old male with no history of any health problems. I am still a "virgin" when it comes to the sexual intercourse anally/vaginally, but for some reason cannot let my fear of HIV from this incident go.
This was my first so-called "homosexual" encounter that involved kissing, ect... It took place in a dark room, and I never touched him (briefly felt his scrotum for a second, and felt his penis through pants). I guess I will explain the exact incident -
1. First we started kissing, he then proceeded to offer me an unprotected blowjob that lasted anywhere from 5-10 min. Correct me if I am wrong but that is NO RISK, right?
2. We kissed some more, I felt his scrotum for a split second. We then got lotion and he started to masturbate me. I never mutually masturbated him. I noticed that he then started to masturbate himself with lotion. I was feeling gross about the situation during it, so I could not reach orgasm.
3. Him masturbating himself, and masturbation me continued. He then told me that he was finished and had "came". He continued to masturbate me after this. I then started to masturbate myself, and placed me left index finger into my anus, and then placed my right index finger into my anus and masturbated with left hand. Switched again, reached orgasm masturbating with right hand, and left index finger in anus.
Now for the fear of risk -
Him getting his semen from his hand onto my penis would be considered mutual masturbation, which is NO RISK. Correct?
What I am most scared about is me fingering myself. I am scared that I may have transfered some of his semen from masturbating my penis into my rectum. Or somehow his semen ended up on my finger and was placed into my anus. IS THIS A RISK?
I have had massive anxiety from this, losing weight, and now have a cold that I am convinced is ARS. I would appreciate an answer back by one of you more then anything. Lizzy Lou? Teak? Anyone?
Was I at risk assuming he is HIV+ ?
Do I need testing assuming he is HIV+ ?
Thanks x 1 million,
I also think a big part of this may be the guilt I am facing from this "homosexual hook-up" considering that it is something i've never done and have always been with women. But that is irrelevant eh...?