Hello all, im not sure where or who can answer or look at this question but here goes! its quite reassuring to see other people going through what im going through right now!
I had a HIV test ( it was the HIV 28 duo ) back in December 6 weeks after my last exposure, and was negative, the doctor said this was conclusive
Since then i have gotten into a relationship.
STUPIDLY i paid an escort for sex i found her on UK site adultwork in her 20`s from London ( yes i paid £150.00 for this nightmare i am having why do we do it?? ) she said everything she does is protected including oral which was fine by me and i received oral twice and did had vaginal sex twice, no anal intercourse, for each act she put the condom on with her mouth, and sucked then we had sex, cleanup then repeated the act. Im stressing thinking what if the condom broke and i didnt notice??? , with the amount of blokes she must have sex with she must have HIV.
Just as i as leaving i used the bathroom and saw some medication in her bathroom, 2 boxes of meds with different names, one was something with the word "cycle" at the end, and the other began with an "A" which dosnt narrow it down!!
straight away i started stressing about HIV and these being HIV meds i was terrified 2 days later i got a sore throat and felt very weak and tired these symptoms went in about 4 days
I phoned the escort and asked her if she was clean, she said she was at the clinic 2 weeks prior, 2 day later i then text her and told her id fell ill and if she had been screened for HIV , she answered very rudely and said she was completly clean im being stupid we used condoms, she gets tested regular and just cause im ill its not her problem.
I must admit i have been googeling and waiting for ARS symptoms to show, i feel very tired weak and hot and very dizzy.. like im burning up also my muscels ache im constantly feeling my neck even though i dont know what im looking for.
My girlfriend wants sex but i cant bare the guilt to give her HIV we dont use condoms and she will know somethings wrong if i insist on using one, and i know shes HIV free as she gives blood and got tested at easter to go abroad with work!
I have made it this far to 3 weeks keeping fairly sane, but now its starting to kill me i rang the specialistat the local GUM clinic at 1 week post exposure asking for a PCR test but she wasnt giving, she said 4 week duo is nowadays very accurate.
With the symptoms im having Anxeity or HIV ?
if it was HIV would the symptoms be obvious like a fever that puts you in bed!!
Any comments or any input from anybody would be great as just sharing my story helps
Im considering paying £280 to have the PCR test or going to a clinic and paying £110 to have the duo done so i can get same day results as i just cant take this anymore i want to get on with my life positive or not!