I dont know, i just want some kind of reassurance, risk assessment,,anything to keep me from going crazy.
heres my story.
Im a 20y/o African studying abroad in the US. Ive never had to visit the hospital for anything in my 3.5years that ive been here.Never really had time for girls or fun until this last year when my work load reduced. Never been sick either, except the occasional headache and stress.
Had a girlfriend from april last year, she was a virgin, i was too.. we had protected sex 70% of the time..other 30 mostly because a condom is not readily available. had other affairs with two women at the time, but it was all protected and these other women were clean..one even showed me her test results. Everything was good. i was finally enjoying the American college life.
Met this new lady january this year, and i was infatuated.. i broke up with my gf and she was there as the rebound. i made the mistake of having unprotected sex with her for about 5minutes, twice. And that was the start of my problems.
I started feeling a burn in my penis..it was uncomfortable, and all my mind went to was my last escapade. Told my sister who was a nurse, she thought i got a UTI and she prescribed the appropriate antibiotics. But i was not relieved. Scared to death,, i went to the ER. They figured that based on my symptoms, it could be chlamydia or gonorrhea and they treated me on an emergency basis. Still no relief, i went back again, and then i was told the bacteria probably developed a resistance. i was given doxycycline for 7 days and the pain finally went away.
But i started wondering if i had HiV..i knew about it in africa but i never had sex in Africa, so i was definitely clean. slowly the anxiety crept up on me. I started checking everywhere on me for anything. i googled even after my sister specifically told me not to.and what i saw was terrifying. I started feeling body pains after, then the armpit pain came by too. i immediately checked for any swellings since i read about lymph nodes. There were no swellings there. i had migraines for two days straight..it could be because of the stress, but it could also be HiV. since i found nothing in my body, i started looking in my tongue. i saw something there, some kind of little thing at the tip that doesnt hurt. and then at the other end i see things i saw on google, oral thrush. i also read that it could be from all the antibiotics that i took, but it could also be HIV!! im so scared to get tested but i finally mustered the will to go tomorrow..and i will.
based on what i said, does anyone think im just being paranoid. i know theres a risk but what are my odds.??
Now i know i would ALWAYS have protected sex even when im married.. and i already took a vow of celibacy.. since january.