Hi,
History repeats itself. With all due respect to the woman who just helped me out by calling me home, I slipped into my OCD. In 2011, I had an encounter with a prostitute with "no risk" at all. I worried for 9 months. Now, I don't want to. It turned negative, as stated on this forum by many.
After two and a half years, I met this woman who saw my celibate state since and offered to help, if I merely wanted to touch and play. We both agreed to meet. We met and she wanted to do all. We kissed vehemently and passionately. It went on for at least ten minutes.
I doubt that she was too rough and hard. I doubted if she or I would have kissed to the extent of cutting or tearing our lips to some tiny extent or more. She gave me a blowjob. I wasn't hard since then. She was trying to get me hard by blowing.
She then bit it a little, although lovingly, like a love bite. She is a good woman though she has had sex for more than 25 years and I suspect with quite a few men, at least. She said only two prior, her husband, boyfriend and me. I don't know whether I believe it or not and if it matters or not.
The oral went on for sometime. She never used condom for oral on any of the (least) three men. When I asked her about her knowledge on infections, she said she never knew anything. I began to Google until I hit upon Med Help again - the only place I heard "no risk". It doesn't mean that's what I want to hear (here), though that's what I "want" to hear.
1) Would her lips make any difference, if it were cut due to the heavy vehement kissing? It's not so violent enough to bite and bleed though. I am just talking about accidents.
2) If I had any HPV, HSV or any other from the previous exposure, would that help the deadly thing gain entry through my urethra? I doubted on having HSV, HPV, Gonorrhea, Chlamydia prior, before the two and a half years, after that prostitute thing.
3) If she had HPV, HSV, would HIV gain entry through the urethra?
4) I don't know her status. I think she could be negative or might go on living with it without knowledge. I don't think latter is the case, as she always used condom.
5) I used condom and tried to thrust some three times. I didn't completely go in. I don't consider than an exposure. So, not worried about it at all.
6) Besides, she had a kind of bump beneath her vagina, almost on the butt, when she lies down on her back, above the thighs. I noticed quite a few bumps: one below her right breast on the rib area, one above breast, and one on her back. A few more bumps seemed to be erupting from many black spots, on her skin placed between smaller gaps, throughout. Some looked like appearing from hair. It's a kind of skin colored protruding bump. It's something which I can play with my fingers and it will go front and back like the ball-shaped-boxing-practice thing seen in Rocky, with which Sylvester Stallone practices!
7) I filled the two condoms with water to see no holes. Yes, I used two condoms for the three thrusts. There were none. I used one condom back again after I failed the first time. Oh stop! Is that a risk? Biting my nails suddenly! The condom was fine. Can it be used twice though I didn't go in? I used the same side which is used to put on. I didn't reverse it inside out. Using condoms twice! Is that a risk? I will add this to the title now! Is this a risk? PLEASE ANSWER THIS ONE TOO!
8) I think I have no more remaining of the experience. So, is there any risk? Low, no or what? Please answer me once. I just don't have more than a couple of clarifications to seek of this, if the relevant are answered! Do I have God's chances still? Do I have any chance remaining? I want to abstain completely from now or maximum touch softly! Teak, Lizzie, somebody! Please! Answer quickly as possible! Thanks a lot! You guys are great!
You guys have some good karmas awaiting your next incarnations! You are Godly beings!
2) If I had any HPV, HSV or any other from the previous exposure, would that help the deadly thing gain entry through my urethra? I doubted on having HSV, HPV, Gonorrhea, Chlamydia prior, before the two and a half years, after that prostitute thing.*** No. Obviously, you were tested for those infections two years ago. Trust your results. Even if you had another STD, it doesn't increase your risk in your situation, as you didn't have a risk.
3) If she had HPV, HSV, would HIV gain entry through the urethra? ***Same question as above, see above answer.
4) I don't know her status. I think she could be negative or might go on living with it without knowledge. I don't think latter is the case, as she always used condom. ***It doesn't matter if she was infected or not. You didn't do anything to put yourself at risk.
5) I used condom and tried to thrust some three times. I didn't completely go in. I don't consider than an exposure. So, not worried about it at all. ***Irrelevant, not a risk.
6) Besides, she had a kind of bump beneath her vagina, almost on the butt, when she lies down on her back, above the thighs. I noticed quite a few bumps: one below her right breast on the rib area, one above breast, and one on her back. A few more bumps seemed to be erupting from many black spots, on her skin placed between smaller gaps, throughout. Some looked like appearing from hair. It's a kind of skin colored protruding bump. It's something which I can play with my fingers and it will go front and back like the ball-shaped-boxing-practice thing seen in Rocky, with which Sylvester Stallone practices! ***Anxiety talking, irrelevant.
7) I filled the two condoms with water to see no holes. Yes, I used two condoms for the three thrusts. There were none. I used one condom back again after I failed the first time. Oh stop! Is that a risk? Biting my nails suddenly! The condom was fine. Can it be used twice though I didn't go in? I used the same side which is used to put on. I didn't reverse it inside out. Using condoms twice! Is that a risk? I will add this to the title now! Is this a risk? PLEASE ANSWER THIS ONE TOO! ***You didn't do anything that required a condom in the first place, but since you used a condom. It's not advisable to reuse a condom (for penetrative sex), always use a new one..again, in YOUR situation, a condom was not necessary anyway, was just a personal choice. You never have to "test" a condom...you would know without a doubt if it broke. Again, that's anxiety induced behavior.
8) I think I have no more remaining of the experience. So, is there any risk? Low, no or what? Please answer me once. I just don't have more than a couple of clarifications to seek of this, if the relevant are answered! Do I have God's chances still? Do I have any chance remaining? I want to abstain completely from now or maximum touch softly! Teak, Lizzie, somebody! Please! Answer quickly as possible! Thanks a lot! You guys are great! ***ZERO RISK FOR HIV.
You need to continue working on your anxiety and OCD, as it's obvious you're suffering from a good bit of it. You do not have an HIV concern.