It is highly unlikely that she would let you penetrate her, and she would have been angry if you did and you would have known it, so I doubt there was any dipping.
I concur with ANM, it is very unlikely that you would have had penetrations during a lap dance. Moreover, thinking that your partner being HIV positive is a big assumption. This is a fabrication of a scenario inside your head, it generally doesn't happen like that, for penetrations the other person has to also let you in.
You seem to be paranoid about this whole thing. Again, getting a PCR RNA test shows that you probably had a lot of anxiety, you read a lot online and you just wanted to know. The fact of the matter is that you are clearly exhibiting paranoia.
You didn't qualify for an RNA test, it is not used for general diagnostic purpose, it is only administered for individuals with exposure to a 'known' positive person. Even for some one with a 'real' risk, undetected RNA NAT at 14 days is a solid indicator that there was no infection to begin with.
You don't need to test further, you didn't have a risk. Please find a therapist for your self who could help you with getting rid of irrational fears, I am confident this is not the first time you are struggling with such fear and ordeal. A proper therapy program will help you overcome your issues.
Therapist found. Couple of more questions. Took rna test and duo 4th gen today(21 days) I know those tests aren't conclusiv at that point. But are they a good indicator? Also is it true that the only means of contracting HIV is through penetration?
I have read online it is low risk. Just curious why that is out there?
I'm sorry I didnt mean to disregard the guideline.I'm just reading conflicting information and trying to get help.