am i infected

[Khan_123]

A guy gave me blowjob and i ejaculated in his mouth . A few hourds after that i got some bumps on my skin which i thought are because of hiv. then i started searching from internet about symptoms, and am sure that i am infected. and  now i have soar throat, joint pain and muscle aches for the last few days. i can not sleep and suffering from severe depression. The guy say he is not infected but my mind is continuously telling me he has hiv that is still not detectable . I am having headache and dry lips also now. I did AN HIV RNA test after 12 days and HIV antigen Antibody test for hiv 1 and 2 , all came negative. Despite all the odds that he may or may not be infected, oral insertive sex has very negligible chances of transmission and HIV RNA test is 90% reliable after 12 days , i am having this depression and the feeling that despite all these odds i am the only unlucky person who has got hiv and it is still undetectable . I am suffering a lot and crying everyday. Don't know what to do, thinking to even kill myself.

[Chima7]

I'm the history of HIV, there has never even been 1 case of anyone being infected by receiving oral sex. You won't be the first one in history. Therefore, all of your anxiety is literally for nothing. You're making yourself sick over a non issue.

If you're truly in such a poor mental state over something that isn't even a problem, I strongly suggest you seek out therapy. Your reaction to this is not in any way normal nor healthy. But it's treatable as long as your look for the help that you need.

[diver58]

Receptive oral sex as you mentioned, does not carry any risk of HIV. Since you were never exposed to any risk, so no need of any test, it is waste of time and money