I am confised here and there is no logcal answer
People say sharing a toy is a risk in my case its not toy but a finger and i got answers that its not a risk please advice i am so confused and i feel like life is a burdon on me now i am lookig forward to your answers with explanation of how sharing toys is a risk and why sharing fingers is not a rosk
I understand how you feel, must of the feelings are resulted from fear and what ifs where as in reality you had no risk. please suicide is a very serious issue and you should seek help,
In an adult, only unprotected anal or vaginal sex and sharing IV drug needles is a risk for HIV infection. if you avoid those you will always stay hiv free
You have been advised previously that this activity is NOT a risk for HIV, and that the only risks are
1) having unprotected, penetrative anal or vaginal sex, or
2) sharing intravenous drug needles.
You did not do either of those, and you had zero risk for HIV. Considering suicide is an EXTREME reaction to a no-risk event, and you should consider being evaluated for mental wellness. It is possible that your rectum or colon was damaged, causing the bleeding - again, you should see a medical professional about this, but it has NOTHING to do with HIV since you had zero risk for HIV.