I recently experienced a “skipped beat” about 3 weeks ago. I made a Cardiologist appointment that same day, I finally got all of my results a couple days ago, my Echocardiogram and ALL tests came back COMPLETELY NORMAL. My heart structure is fine, the Holter monitor was fine, I did find out that I have Premature Ventricular Contractions but they’re at a 1% and apparently 20 % would be concerning so I cleared that too. I also don’t have A-Fib (that was 0%). These PVC’s which don’t happen often either btw are considered benign and I was told to come back in one year and that was just for precaution.
I had to get these obvious facts out of the way because I know all of this, and I believe my doctor and I believe I’m probably gonna be okay but I can’t stop focusing on my heartbeat at times and I check it sometimes and when I do I suppose I get anxious and that in turn makes me believe that I’m in danger of a heart disease that self-perpetuating cycle of me getting worked up and causing my heart to race out of anxiety.
Sorry if this is long and I’ll repeat my question because I had to get the details out of the way so you’d understand: How do I relax? How do I stop focusing on my heartbeat?
It’s as if my hyper awareness is my new second nature unconscious response now and I can’t get back to my normal life it seems at least not entirely, the 2 days after I found out I was okay I didn’t notice any PVC’s at all, and I wasn’t focused on them I was out with friends for one of those days getting lost in conversations and completely forgetting that I even had this issue to begin with therefore I didn’t notice anything “dangerous”.
But today I noticed one but that could have been due to coffee that my doctor told me to cut out (old habits die hard) and then it made me nervous and sad the rest of the day.
I just want my life back I can’t go back to how it was before this happened, even though I’m fine I’m still scarred from the whole situation. I’ve never had any heart issues before I thought I had heart disease I thought I messed my whole life up, I recently gave up alcohol for good that’s how much this scared the crap out of me and my cardiologist confirmed I did no lasting damage to my heart from that thank god.
I’m crying as I type this I’m a 29 year old male and I know people fight in wars and have car accidents and actual trauma that messes them up so it’s mean of me to say this but this was my equivalent of that.
I’m not a depressed person I see a therapist regularly and I have an amazing girlfriend who supports me and I want to focus on my engagement but this is tearing me apart. This was a real traumatic experience for me and even if you guys don’t have an answer to my question I just want you to know that it’s already helped me to get this off of my chest. Just to get this out in the open is good.
It made me realize that you have to take care of your body and your health and especially your heart and that life is too damn short and too precious. This thing inside of us can just stop beating at any moment and I’m not getting any younger. This health scare has left some lasting damage to me mentally and I’m usually an optimistic person I just wanna get back to my usual self I know I will eventually but this constant focus on my heart and worry and just vividly remembering how terrified I was thinking I had a shortened my life and a bad heart.
If you can relate or you have any insight I’d appreciate it I’ve never been this scared in my entire life before I found out I was okay and it seems I’m still picking up the pieces from this harrowing experience, yes it matured me but it also scarred me, thank you in advance for any help and suggestions and for helping me to get this out of my system at the very least.