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[screaming48]

Alright everyone went to the doc yesterday, have signed all the consent forms, they are going through some specialty pharmacy that will contact the insurance and set that up and they are supposed to contact me to set up a time to train me to give myself the shots, about two weeks from now will be starting.. I am scared people, I know this is something that needs to be taken care of but still scared. I just hope like everyone else that I can manage things on the farm. I had a discussion with the doc about this as really it is my main concern, he was more concerned with my anxiety? I am on welbutrin but can't help being anxious, I mean its normal to be nervous and anxious right....anne

[screaming48]

It does help that everyone has been through the start fever of anxiety, I knew I would get support from everyone for this. Sometimes I just want to melt down in tears for all of us going through this, not just hep c but all diseases. I never thought I would have something like this, shows you no one is immune its the luck of the draw, does not matter if you did do drugs, had surgery, blood transfusion or whatever, we all start the same way worried and anxious and thinking we are all going to die :( then you find a place like this where everyone has had the same feelings and know what you are going through. You can't ask for better folks then the ones I have met on here. I hope that one day I can also be an inspiration to someone who has just found out they have hep c, and give them the support and love that has been shown to me. Good luck to all who are starting soon and those who are part way through and the ones who have gone on before us and still take the time to come here and offer help and support to us newbies.. thank you all so much...

[indy531]

I'm in your shoes and completely appreciate the anxiety-I begin very shortly as well. I think of this as 'trial by fire' and will walk through it and remain whole. For me, I find visualizing being well, UND, and ending tx to help. My best regards to you and I hope that you will let us know how well you are progressing.

[elpasolady]

Just want to add my name to this list. I am rooting for you.  There is nothing I can say that wasn't said before me. I concur with what everyone said.  I just posted my first journal entry on my first week, if you want to read it.
The first day, with the first pills in my hand ( 12 days ago), I just stood there for a minute, contemplating what was ahead of me, voiced, out loud, a big "UGH!" and down the hatch they went. And guess wha?, Everything has been pretty good since.  You are stronger than you think, for sure!  Now, go gidder done!
Peace be with you!

[deb121260]

good luck, i know how you feel i start on monday. Its so helpful to have all these great people here to help us.   many blessings

[ann61]

Your feelings are pretty typical.  These are very strong drugs with well-known side effects.  You would be crazy to not be a little anxious.  The good news is that for most of us the side effects are manageable and your medical team and all of us are here to help you.  Once you start you will meet people who are on the same week as you are and there are many, many who are further along or who have completed treatment.  It is wonderful to be able to compare notes and share experiences.  When you've got good news, we will celebrate with you and when you're down, we will pull you along.  The trip isn't easy, but it is so worth it.  Good luck and welcome aboard!

[screaming48]

I just want to thank everyone for the boost, I have been so anxious and had to stay off the forum for a couple of days but couldn't stay away too long as I also wanted to help others even while I was freaking. Ya'll are all great people and I really appreciate you all more than you know..This is the Rubber Duck signing off..love to all

[flcyclist]

The fear of the unknown.  None of us knew what to expect.  Sure we read the literature, looked at the percentage of what side effects to expect, but since this varies so much from person to person, it's a lot of worrying for nothing.  Spend the next 2 weeks getting all those extra chores done, get out and have some fun and take a deep breath.  Once you begin, the weeks will start clicking by and this will soon be behind you.

[Isobella]

Oh my goodness...this certainly brings back memories!  In the days approaching tx, I was a mess, even with the Zoloft.  My nurse coordinator was literally sitting between me and my first doses of meds.  I remember thinking..."just shut the *&%$$$# up and GIVE ME MY SHOT!!!!!!!!!!"  Then, in the days following, when I realized that nothing horrible was happening, that anxiety turned into excitement and relief.  That excitement went a long way towards making the first 6 weeks or so fly by.

Hang in there. Vent here.  Looks like there is a great group of people starting at the same time you are...they ( and the rest of the forum) will be a great asset to you.

Good Luck.....can't wait to hear your first UND post!


Isobella

[willbb]

Yep..nobody gets away with not being nervous before you start....kinda like when you were a little kid and  learning to swim and whoever was teaching you said..."ok ..jump in the pool"       you shake shiver and pout... then jump in.....   "hey..this aint so bad "  

good luck...you will be fine...

Will

[researchmonkey326]

I was wondering what was going on with you.  Glad to hear you are getting things lined up. I think frijole is right - the only thing that really helps is actually starting.

[frijole]

Oh, yeah.  The pretreatment anxiety is rough.  It is going to be an anxious 2 weeks, wellbutrin or not.  I don't know anything to stop that except the first shot.  It is that fear that gets us, and once we start it gets much better so just hang in there as best you can.  It will be over, promise.
frijole

[Jillybean65]

If you do indeed start Sept 12th, that's my start day as well. My thought is, sooner I jump in, sooner I can get out! Keep me posted, ok?

[mykids247]

I see my dr. on 9/12 and hopefully start then. My thought process is hold my nose and just jump in. No other choices. Not getting any younger and want to enjoy my life without this $@#T invading my personal space............good luck you will be fine. Can you get someone to help you with the critters if need be? Maybe a neighbor, or friend. Wish I lived nearby I love critters I'd help ya.

[belle19]

anne,  you're going to be just fine.  it's scary but not as bad as i thought it'd be.  just remember to drink LOTS of water.  it really helps with sx.  take care and good luck to you.  belle

[crossroadsec]

Yay! So happy for you! I remember how excited I was. Nervous? OMG! And most of my fears were Needless. The anticipation can create all these "what if's." You're already grounded in so much more knowledge than I was. It was smart of you to join here in advance. You're ahead of the game! Congrats. Karen :)

[Gerbils]

Hi Screaming,

I have been thinking about you wondering when you were going to start. You have as much positive thoughts as I can muster already headed your way. It is frightening but it will be OK. I can't believe I just took shot 10 and that will soon be the case for you too. I am glad you started the wellbutrin now. Sometimes this has been easy and others it is one foot in front of the other. Now it is your time. Round up those hep c critters and move 'em on down the road. The convoy is waitin' on ya, Rubber Ducky. Undetectable here you come!
Still here,
G

[Mary4now]

I was so anxious, my GI said jeez you had better knock that anxiety down a notch and thought the anxiety was the tip of the iceberg called depression, so the anti depressants Lexapro helped me a lot.  
Good luck to you I think its the fear of the unknown that gets us and once you become familiar with the course of treatment and know that it is meant to help you, it gets better.
best wishes,
Mary