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Unconventional Q, hopefully not inappriate:
"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your lonlinest lonlinessand say, "This life which you love must be lived by you again and again, and innumerable times more, and every pain and every joy, and every thought, and every sigh must come again to youall in the dame sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turnedwith you in it, dust of dust." Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or, would you answer, "I have never heard anything more divine."?
I'm very sorry that you are going through these horrifying times. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hope you will be able to find light and joy in living again.
God bless,
Marcia
Hope you will be able to find light and joy in living again.
God bless,
Marcia
I don't believe demons have anything true comming out of their mouths. They are demons, creatures from hell, sent here to confuse us and torture us. Oh, wait I don't believe in hell. I'm really confused now. I don't believe in demons either only dragons and a few other mythical creatures like elves and unicorns and wizards and maybe withches. Not Wiccans but witches, like hags on broomsticks. I don't believe in Wiccans just witches. I think maybe I'm ripe for another type of treatment....
About never coming back here after I sent out the thread:
I collect quotes. I write books of them, and this quote struck me as particularly meaningful to me in the state of mind I was in at the time. Since writing the quote as a question, I've discovered and joined the mental health forum. Right now, my hep c isn't my biggest problem, the suicidal ideation and attempt that followed a few weeks ago, were bigger to me then.
I have still not been able to afford to follow up with the GI doc about the liver Bx results, which really upset me and had me worried. But at the last appointment with the GI, before the Bx, he told me my vireal load (titer) was a mere fivehundredsixtyone (561), and my enzymes had returned to normal: ast-13, alt-20. In fact, my VL was so low, the lab was unable to determine which geno type I have because of a lack of enough material in my blood to test.
So I guess what I'm getting at is, I've made peace withe virus, but was hospitalized more than 10 days for the suicide attempt a couple weeks ago. Since then I've been trying not to dwell on things I can't change. I'm sorry if it was impolite to make a post and not follow up on it. I'm pretty new here.
As a follow-up statement to my 'out there' quote :), I would throw myself on the ground, gnash my teeth in dispair, and cry out, "Why me?!" And that's even after my mental health meds have brightened my mood. I wouldn't want to go thru this life again if I was paid.
So, bye for now, and I'll try to keep in touch more frequently from now on.
Averagegeek
I collect quotes. I write books of them, and this quote struck me as particularly meaningful to me in the state of mind I was in at the time. Since writing the quote as a question, I've discovered and joined the mental health forum. Right now, my hep c isn't my biggest problem, the suicidal ideation and attempt that followed a few weeks ago, were bigger to me then.
I have still not been able to afford to follow up with the GI doc about the liver Bx results, which really upset me and had me worried. But at the last appointment with the GI, before the Bx, he told me my vireal load (titer) was a mere fivehundredsixtyone (561), and my enzymes had returned to normal: ast-13, alt-20. In fact, my VL was so low, the lab was unable to determine which geno type I have because of a lack of enough material in my blood to test.
So I guess what I'm getting at is, I've made peace withe virus, but was hospitalized more than 10 days for the suicide attempt a couple weeks ago. Since then I've been trying not to dwell on things I can't change. I'm sorry if it was impolite to make a post and not follow up on it. I'm pretty new here.
As a follow-up statement to my 'out there' quote :), I would throw myself on the ground, gnash my teeth in dispair, and cry out, "Why me?!" And that's even after my mental health meds have brightened my mood. I wouldn't want to go thru this life again if I was paid.
So, bye for now, and I'll try to keep in touch more frequently from now on.
Averagegeek
Why do people throw these 'out there' threads out and never come back to them???
;)
;)
In my current state...I'll skip by the 'where the H*ll is this coming from" and go with....
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
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