Unconventional Q, hopefully not inappriate:

[averagegeek]

"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your lonlinest lonlinessand say, "This life which you love must be lived by you again and again, and innumerable times more, and every pain and every joy, and every thought, and every sigh must come again to youall in the dame sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turnedwith you in it, dust of dust." Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or, would you answer, "I have never heard anything more divine."?

[averagegeek]

2 more comments on demons and eternity:

"Heck is for peope who believe in Gosh." ~Northern Sun Magazine

"Hell is the knowledge of opportunity lost; the place where the man I am comes face to face with the man I might have been."  ~Anonymous

[averagegeek]

This quote, and I'm going to copy and paste it back in here now,

"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your lonlinest lonliness and say, "This life which you love must be lived by you again and again, and innumerable times more, and every pain and every joy, and every thought, and every sigh must come again to you all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned with you in it, dust of dust." Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or, would you answer, "I have never heard anything more divine."?

Since rereading this quote about 100 times, I have just realized the answer to my question, or rather, the question posed in the quote, is actually answered by the demon itself in the second line when it asks, "This life which you LOVE must be lived by you again and again...."

So my response would have to be, "I have never heard anything more divine.", because without sorrow or bitterness sometimes, how could I ever know happiness or sweetness?

~Averagegeek

[scarlet135]

I often wish it would happen but it never does...

[IAmTheWalrus]

I see perhaps my comment was insensitive. I see now that this thread came from serious thought. I apologize. I meant it to be light hearted and not sarcastic. Hope you'll forgive me. Hope your future brings happier thoughts.

Brent

[tulsatime]

Too bad we can't live it again our way. Being able to correct the wrongs. But then we wouldn't be the person we are today.
I am sorry to hear you are struggling. I hope things get better     Debi

[comeagain]

I have a question for you when you get those depressive thoughts do you think its only you how have such thoughts and diserves to die in the whole wide world.

Let me tell you your not alone we should all kill ourselves if you should, because every person is a fallen creature according to the Bible.

When I have felt demonlike activity I have learned from an old alcoholic to speak out loud and thank God for the cross at calvary and thank him for the total victory there.
They or that will go away it has always worked for me.

ca

[Marcia2202]

I'm very sorry that you are going through these horrifying times. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hope you will be able to find light and joy in living again.

God bless,

Marcia

[chuckles333]

I don't believe demons have anything true comming out of their mouths. They are demons, creatures from hell, sent here to confuse us and torture us. Oh, wait I don't believe in hell. I'm really confused now. I don't believe in demons either only dragons and a few other mythical creatures like elves and unicorns and wizards and maybe withches. Not Wiccans but witches, like hags on broomsticks. I don't believe in Wiccans just witches. I think maybe I'm ripe for another type of treatment....

[averagegeek]

About never coming back here after I sent out the thread:

I collect quotes. I write books of them, and this quote struck me as particularly meaningful to me in the state of mind I was in at the time. Since writing the quote as a question, I've discovered and joined the mental health forum. Right now, my hep c isn't my biggest problem, the suicidal ideation and attempt that followed a few weeks ago, were bigger to me then.

I have still not been able to afford to follow up with the GI doc about the liver Bx results, which really upset me and had me worried. But at the last appointment with the GI, before the Bx, he told me my vireal load (titer) was a mere fivehundredsixtyone (561), and my enzymes had returned to normal: ast-13, alt-20.  In fact, my VL was so low, the lab was unable to determine which geno type I have because of a lack of enough material in my blood to test.

So I guess what I'm getting at is, I've made peace withe virus, but was hospitalized more than 10 days for the suicide attempt a couple weeks ago. Since then I've been trying not to dwell on things I can't change. I'm sorry if it was impolite to make a post and not follow up on it. I'm pretty new here.

As a follow-up statement to my 'out there' quote :), I would throw myself on the ground, gnash my teeth in dispair, and cry out, "Why me?!"  And that's even after my mental health meds have brightened my mood. I wouldn't want to go thru this life again if I was paid.

So, bye for now, and I'll try to keep in touch more frequently from now on.

Averagegeek

[Lady Lauri]

Why do people throw these 'out there' threads out and never come back to them???

;)

[Lady Lauri]

Ditto ;)

[Lady Lauri]

In my current state...I'll skip by the 'where the H*ll is this coming from" and go with....

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

[uniqueflower]

If I heard a demon say that to me I would immediately check myself into the nicest psych ward I could find and seek appropriate treatment and the cause of my delusion.  But of course, that's just me.

[rita863]

live your life without regrets!  

[IMstacie]

impossible, I learn from my mistakes and experiences.

[IAmTheWalrus]

Frankenstein need transplant. Transplant good for Frankenstein! ;-)

Frank N. Styne

[franke566]

Hell is repetition.  Like orphanedhawk said: the demon is our EGO-much harder to deal with than any vision

[Isobella]

You have to live everyday like ya don't get a "do-over"  Regrets are only bad if ya don't learn from them, some say.  But every regret I have ever had has led me to the place I am now..............so I guess I'm saying I'd do it all again in a heart beat,  baby.

[orphanedhawk]

Nobody ever knows what if until what if happens.
No way I'd ever get a transplant~too frankenstienian for me.

And the only demons I believe in are our egos.

[dsrt]

Sorry, that wa actually by Ray Nelson

[dsrt]

Reference the speculative fiction short story 'Time Travel for Pedestrians' by Kris Neville in Harlan Ellison's anthology 'Again, Dangerous Visions'. Covers some interesting ideas on the subject. Warning: adult content.

[IAmTheWalrus]

I'd look into a change in my meds! I am sorry I can't give a more serious answer, but life is too important for such seriousness.

[mikesimon]

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Mental-Health/show/122

[SouthernGirl007]

I would do neither.  I asked my Preacher a question because I felt demons wouldn't leave me alone after my father passed.  I had anxiety attacks, couldn't breathe, felt like I was dying at age 28.  I felt haunted in my most vulnerable state.  His answer to me is my answer to your question.  I would say:  "Get thee behind me, Satan, in the name of Jesus Christ, I command you".  My eternity will not be my life re-lived.  It will be something better than any human can imagine UP there, NOT down there.