Feeling dirty with genital herpes

[nervoussss]

A few weeks ago I (female) was diagnosed with genital HSV1. The outbreak, for the most part, has gone away. Even though there are very little physical symptoms left, I am having a lot of trouble with the mental and emotional part. I cry almost everyday because I realize that I have to live the rest of my life with this virus. It just makes me feel so dirty and unwanted. I understand that most of these feelings comes from the stigma, but I just can't shake these depressing thoughts. I've only been with one person (my at-the-time boyfriend), and I contracted it by receiving oral sex. To make matters worse, when I told him I had herpes, he was in complete denial that he gave it to me (he did not know he had it) and broke up with me a few days later. It has just been an emotional roller coaster. Any advice?

[feelingundone]

I gave you all the information on how ghsv1 is not a big deal at all. Now it's up to you to come to terms with everything. Knowledge is power.
The stigma is ridiculous but its hsv1 and well over half the adult population has hsv1. To think you're "dirty" or undesirable is a load of crap. You are the same person and don't let some idiot (your boyfriend) dictate how you feel. Any future partner is extremely unlikely to ever contrwct hsv1 from your genitals. I've told you this before but it bares repeating. I would much rather have a partner have ghsv1 than oral hsv1. Just be you and I promise things will work out just fine.