asymptomatic shedding fears is driving me to anxiety

[LionClaw]

I had OCD for a couple of years no and it run my life. I had some forms of unprotected sex with a gay sex worker, but it was only oral(he was more concerned about HIV). He also had his penis rub on parts of my body. I didn't know anything at all about herpes but after reading so much of it I am getting paranoid. I asked around for professionals and they only make things worse. I have gone to the point of going back to my OCD ways which is something I was trying to avoid. I hate having to wash my hands so much. I don't even know if I have it because testing for herpes is so weird. I don't want to infect my family at all. I don't want to live this way. I can't even kiss anyone anymore. I can't tell if I am being reasonable or not. I don't even want to have sex anymore because I don't know if someone is infected or if I am infected.

I can't stand it. Is there any advice to calm me down or info that could help? Everything I read about herpes is so frighting and I hate how much of a good mood they try to spin on it.

I need help.

[Life360_Dave]

Hi, weve all repied to your concerns and never presented herpes as something horrible but to the contrary. The issue here is OCD not herpes and i would suggest posting in the OCD group for futher aide on this condition. OCD can be the horrible issue not herpes.