Okay, I'm super confused.
You had a positive hsv1 blood test in 2009. You get cold sores occasionally.
Then in May 2019, you got ghsv, and were diagnosed with some kind of swab as having ghsv1? You had no blisters, but were swabbed genitally anyway? Am I understanding that correctly?
Did you have a positive ghsv1 swab?
You have another thread going. Let's stick to this one so I can keep it all straight.
Here is your other question:
What is the outlook because I've been a year since first ob and not on antivirals I read it often goes into remission in a year or 2? But what is this based on how can I trust anything or trust shedding rates? Or worry I'll have no outbreaks for a year than get a number of them a year or 2 down the road?
Herpes never goes into remission, if you mean this definition: "Disappearance of the signs and symptoms of cancer or other disease." (https://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=5296)
Ghsv1, from the start, rarely sheds and rarely recurs for most people. Because of this, it rarely transmits.
Your first year or two of ghsv1 infection, you may be shedding about 3-5% of days a year, which is about 10-18 days. After 2 years, it's down to about 4 days. (https://westoverheights.com/forum/question/ghsv1-5/ - Terri Warren is one of the world's leading experts in the field.)
Many people with ghsv1 only get the initial outbreak and then never get another. There's no way for you to know what will happen with you, but if you do get some later, it will likely be for a reason - maybe you have an infection like bacterial vaginitis or another STD, maybe your immune system will be weakened by cancer treatment (I sure hope not), but most often, you'll be able to figure out why. If that's the case, you can always take meds like Valtrex to help.
Are you more worried about recurrences or transmission or both? The thing about herpes is that it recurs. It's just what it does. The sooner you accept that, the easier living with herpes is. You have ghsv1 - it really shouldn't affect your life in any big way.
What can I help you with so that it's easier for you to accept? Are you afraid of outbreaks? Transmission? Telling partners? Something else?
So, you are self diagnosing with ghsv1? Your doctor did not diagnose you? 80 percent of the population has hsv1. It's very common and for most people, not a cumbersome issue to deal with. But from what you've written, you didn't get a diagnosis of ghsv1.