This is my second out break of Herpes. I knew I was going to get it, because my partner has it, i knew he had it when we first met. I love him very much, But now i have a painful itchy rash thing on my crotch. We have a two year old which sometimehims i feel the stress too much and i Got this outbreak. yesterday was the first time i actually said it to myself and my partner. I was sad, scared, and unsure how to feel. I was a regular sex addict (using the term loosely) but now i have barriers i cannot have sex whenever i wish. I always tried to teach my partner it didn't matter that i still loved him. I showed him that i wasn't afraid to hold him or kiss him when he had an out break i tried to teach him that no matter what i would love him, all of him. now that i have it i am sad, in pain, and wish he would hold me and help me more but now i am just sad and hate that i have this.