I'm seeking advice on a recent issue I've been dealing with. I'd like to preface this by saying I know what I've done is not right, and I am judging myself extremely hard, as a result. I feel awful and am simply seeking the best course of action moving forward, with as little judgment as possible. For real - I can't stop worrying about this.
Here's the issue.
About a month ago, a girl and I had unprotected sex. We started with a condom, but she kind of convinced me to take it off (as I was having trouble staying hard). We were both extremely intoxicated, as well. Previously, I had been diagnosed with Genital Warts. I didn't currently have anything I recognized as a wart on me, and I hadn't for a couple of months. I didn't mention anything. Yes, I know. I'm the absolute worst. Please trust that I feel it.
Cut to three and a half weeks later, I go to a wedding, have a pretty chaotic drunken party night. The following day, I get the worst outbreak of what appear to be warts I've ever seen. Dozens. They literally appeared over night.
Now, I have a couple of concerns.
1. As mentioned, this looks nothing like what I previously had. There are so many. Up until that point, I had only ever had a single wart here or there; very sparse. Always easily dealt with. Is it possible that this is something I picked up from her? Can you pick up different wart strains after you already have one?
2. I care very little about me having this. I can deal with it. I can't deal with giving this to someone else. Not telling her was a drunken mistake that won't ever happen again, but I don't know what to do about this current situation, now.
I had no warts present; is it worth it to bring up something that may cause her an immense amount of stress that may never even affect her? The result of this would be her constantly worrying about it, and never testing positive. That could go on for ages.
I realize I'm a monster, and I'm NOT looking for any kind of easy way out. My guilt is thick, and here to stay, no matter what. I just want to handle this in a way that will do the least amount of damage.