I'm so baffled, scared, concerned and very overwhelmed!!! I've had high risk HPV for 13 years. Sometimes my PAP's are good sometimes they aren't. It's like a roller coaster. I've stopped having sex, I don't smoke, barely drink, exercise, take L-Lysine and Vitamin D, along with a lot of other vitamins. My last 3 paps came back normal, this last one just came back abnormal, so my gyn wanted to do a coposcopy. I went in, and was very nervous and very tensed. It was very hard for him to see much, but he said from what he did see he didn't see any changeds, however he wants to send me to a oncologist/gyn. The last time my pap came back bad it was a low cell change, then the 3 came back good, and this last one not only came back bad it came back with a high cell change. Mind you I have had a complete hysterectomy in 2005. So what is being papped is my vagina. I've read up on vaginal cancer, and though I'm at risk (due to my HPV) it is very rare to get. That does not make me feel any better though. Back in March I did have some vaginal bleeding, itching, and pain when I urinated, not a burning feeling of pain, more like my abdomin was in pain (sort of like a UTI feeling) it lasted about a week and never came back. I (although I should know better) assumed it was maybe vaginitis cause I had just started working out more days and would sweat and then wait til evening to shower....anyway...looking up vaginal cancer symptoms I do see that vaginal bleeding can be a symptom, but would it just happen, last a short time and then go away and not come back since? Since my regular gyn wants to send me to a specialist for the first time in about 5 years I'm so so scared that I have vaginal cancer. Can anyone...anyone at all give me some answers or some hope? Just to relax a bit. I dont have an appointment yet on when I go to the specialist, but I need to hear something besides what everyone is telling me...."Just wait and see what the specialist says" It's hard cause a lot of people just don't understand. Please and Thank you so very much.