This is the first time I have sat down to write something about my journey with HPV. I've not told ANYONE in my life, the only people who know are the few doctors and nurses that have been helping me treat this. It's good to get this off my chest.
I discovered my GW last August of 2010. I had been with a girl for awhile, and apparently she either didn't know she had them or hid them from me. We had both protected and unprotected sex over a course of about 6 months. The warts didn't show up until 2 months after we had broken up. When they showed up they just about killed me, I was devastated, a broken man... and to some extent am still. I haven't had so much as a date since coming down with GW out of fear that I will fall for someone, then get my heart broken when they run from me like I am some sort of leper. I've thought about joining those positive dating sites, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
My treatment history has been long and sordid. I've had cryo about 4 times, have done the ACV thing 5 or more times, have tried using garlic, etc. So all in all I have had them treated approximately 10 times, usually with 10 or more warts on the base of my penis. Each time they have come back. NOTHING IS WORKING and I just feel like giving up. Has anyone had this problem, where they just don't go away? All the info online says they should clear themselves in 3-6 mos., with 9 months being the outset, but I'm going on 8 months now and everytime I think I'm clear because of the treatment, they come back.
I feel like I will never again have a relationship, am permanently tainted and have become a pariah. I'm just about 30 now, am doing well in other aspects of my life, but am not dating because of this. I've turned girls down, and this is the worst thing in the world... I want to love, to share my love and happiness with a partner... but I can't because I'm diseased. When will this just go away?