Hi, doulamommy,
Please don't struggle alone. We have a number of user groups that you might want to take a look at. These are groups that are created and moderated by our members. Here's a link:
http://www.medhelp.org/user_groups/listYou might also want to post about this in our Depression forum. If you find you need more support, please be sure to let your doctor know so that you can get a referral to a face-to-face support group, or any other resources you might need.
Best wishes to you and the bebe!
Claire