My name is kiran and I am 28 years old, I need some advice regarding my condition. Please read through this and help me.
I started smoking at a very young age of 15, now I am totally in a mess. 3 years ago I had a nose bleed, a few drops of blood from the left nostril, since then my life has turned into a nightmare.
I was 25 at that time and could not decide whether to go to a doctor so I did not discuss this with anybody till day. I was very much confused and worried that I started taking Vitamin C pills; I thought I had cancer of some sort and started taking 10 pills everyday.
I could not sleep and be happy, I was consumed by this thought that I was going to die, after a couple of weeks I started having heart burns, and I have been having them ever since.
I met with an oncologist, he said I was OK but I have high blood pressure but no cancer, but still I could not come out of the feeling. I have visited several doctors.
Nowadays I have put on weight and become very tired, I am always tired, I feel short of breadth on even climbing one flight of stairs. I am not able to concentrate on anything. My mind seems to be occupied and I am always in a state of panic. Every time my phone rings I expect bad news.
My stomach seems to be heavy all the time, after a meal my stomach enlarges filled with gas and I start sweating, I could not work. I am always sleepy and when I wake up I feel sad and tired.
I have recently visited a gastro he gave me medicine for swollen liver. I don’t drink. Even when I walk a small distance I feel pain in my lower jaw. I have had constant pain in my chest, it’s a kind of pricking pain, it is always there. My heart beat is always above 100 beats per minute.
Please advice me, I have lost my confidence and courage. I cannot discuss this with family or friends they might think I am a loser and will worry for me, I cannot make them unhappy.