My Question is simple, why ? I have an idea and I told my urologist in confidence. He just told me that we had to keep an eye on it after a cystoscopy. I had problems in jr high with a health class that they had on sex education. The teachers all had their personalities and didn't much help kids, but they sure as heck used what they perceived about us to their advantage (their was well known tv and paper news that the teachers didn't get enough to babysit the parents kids in the 80's) I moved a lot and this was a new school and I was going through puberty. I abused myself alittle before because of abuse by fellow students, not much till my psychiatrist told me that he had heard of my situation where boys inserted a cutip that the cotton was taken off if having negative thoughts of choice of sex partners. I know this is self abuse and I need help still till today that no one will help me with and I still have mental issues because of it. Even though I have my preference in my sexuality and sexual health although I have problems with my confidence in choice of my sexual interests health wise. But I told the urologist what I had done. I think the que tip scraped the urethra and ripped it. I think it didn''t heal and I have had a lot of microscopic blood I am told since I am 20. I am now 50. I have only had 1 semi healthy love interest that lasted a long time and poor health. I just need some genuine companionship and healthy love and care. But for my blood in the urine, a doctor that sees past the poor advice for a confused child at the time and doesn't see dollar signs in medical. Which I have a problem with still till today. Not enough correct test, too many tests, duplicate tests even thought the doctors can submit tests to other doctors to not duplicate tests.