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Bizarre (to me and others around me; incl. my GP) mental symptoms?

BIO: 31M, 6FT, 0IN, Caucasian, life long and getting worse. Occasionally ( once weekly) take an oral cannabis pill half CBD, half THC as it is legal and recreational where I live and seems to help me regulate my borderline issues better than various anti-psychotics and anti-depressants I have been on for 3 years that made me worse. With out the THC/CBD my mood swings get worse with time and are harder to control. I am off all meds now and have been for about 7 months. These issues have been life long and slowly getting worse.

Existing Issues: Hi, I already have a tentative diagnosis of PNES (psychogenic non-epileptic seizures: stress induced), GAD, Generalized anxiety, PTSD(drugging and rape victim), and borderline personality disorder (discouraged sub-type, caused by nearly 15 years of daily emotional, verbal and sometimes physical abuse from both home and school). Also developed OCD as a coping mechanism as a young child and still have it. Also embarrassingly do what is called "dermatophagia" with my skin (hide it very well) to cope in high abrupt stress, which is near daily in my life due to unsolvable financial issues because I can't drive anymore from PNES, and got trapped in a rural area with no work.

My question is: for my entire life I have had symptoms that I considered extremely embarrassing and I feared the consequences of mentioning them/ reasons why I'd **** up tasks at school/work as a kid, teen, and adult. Recently I have been more comfortable talking about it the older I get.

So a few things are going on on top of what I listed at the beginning of my question:

(1) Generalized difficulty/trouble interpreting questions/instructions. I don't have a specific example right now but it can be a near daily thing. Example: In school a question asks something and I would interpret what it was asking wrong and therefore get a question wrong, even though when I'd get the test/assignment back and saw the right answer I'd think "ohhh If I knew that's what it was asking I would have answered it right" This isn't a one off, its like ALL the time, even at work I consistently go "ohhh you mean like this (the right way) after miss-interpreting the verbal/written directions. I do not think I have a reading disorder as I read a lot and have been to college and Uni (Canada, not post grad college US(I know this is mostly a US based sub), just undergrad), just with a lot of struggle to pass in the way I listed. This inability to properly interpret questions/tasks has cost me performance issues at work, literally cost me my job before and caused academic issues in school. I also always need more time than anyone in my class to complete a test, but never got it because I didn't have a diagnosis at the time and I thought it was just me who had to "try harder and 'not be stupid'" despite it literally feeling like a mental wall.

(2) some troubles with executive functioning mostly in keeping track of time, I am always late, always rushed but this is also due to my OCD that I have to satiate which wastes the time even if I jive my self plenty of time I am still late.

(3) Trouble doing some hyper specific and narrow in scope simple motor tasks. Folding towels and making beds takes me longer than anyone else and sometimes I just freeze and it feels like making a bed is harder than solving a non-linear second order partial differential equation on a math test. Like I know how to do it in my head but when I go to do it its like I'm lost... Also I am a little dyslexic, and frequently just use spell check to fix those errors.

(4) Some kind of processing delay when taking in information, like people will yell at me to "MOVE" when I have to take a few seconds to figure out what they said to do while others scatter. The yelling of "MOVE" at work triggers my PTSD and borderline emotions from the screaming abuse I faced daily as a child. I also frequently miss hear. Example. In a game show the host says "you are the third team to arrive" and without sub titles to read I hear "you are the thirteenth team to arrive" and this happens to me like 100 times a day, every day with not just shows but auditory convos which are impossible to keep the other person from not getting frustrated with me because I constantly miss-hear what they say. This feels like a disability to me, but IDK.

What could be causing this? (conditions I have or something else yet unknown?), healthcare in rural Canada where I am is actually **** poor and I have been waiting literal years for some intake test questions to address theses because they are "beyond the scope of knowledge" of my general practitioner in my town.

Thanks for any help. I am realizing now how desperate I am and IDK how much longer I can last like this. It is severely and significantly affecting my daily life and is getting worse the older I get.
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