How old are you? Have you discussed this with anyone? Have you sought out therapy? If you feel like you're going to act on it, call a suicide hotline right away or go to the closest emergency room. I'm guessing you're fairly young, have you spoken with a school counselor, friends, and family? You didn't always feel like this. You won't always feel like this. Tell us more and please, seek help, it's all around you.
Oh sweetie!!! I'm so sorry. We can listen if that will help. But please know that there are numbers you CAN call just to talk 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) and hee is one you can TEXT with Text START to 741741 to talk to someone at Crisis Text Line - crisistextline.org.
You are a valuable person and we want you here! All things can be eventually solved. I'm sending you hope sweetie.
We're here to listen and encourage you to talk to one of the above numbers, your parents, a trusted adult. We care.
Why you are telling, nobody can help you. This is wrong. Please talk with someone whom you can trust and I am sure you will definitely get help from that person.
Also you should vsiit to counselor.
All the best. Thanks.