How beautifully put Shelby. While you will never forget, it will get easier.
I know exactly how you feel - we had been give the news several years ago that unfortunately, we are infertile. We discovered that I was pregnant between Christmas and New Year, and miscarried on Jan 23. There is no end, but healing does come, I am so sick of people that keep saying that it must have been meant to be, or there must have beem something wrong, because NO, this was our miracle, and there should have been nothing wrong. It's so incredibly hard to see friends with their newborns, and while they try to understand, they can't possibly ever. There is no failing, only surviving, and there is no "loser", only loss. I'm not sure how long you ahd known of your pregnancy, but I know I was in love from the moment I saw the positive on the test. My child was incredibly loved there and then, and still is now. My heart goes out to you, and to everyone else that suffers through such a painful journey. Love your child, and be certain they love you too xox