I need your support!

[ArmyPrincess819]

I went for an u/s today. My dr req it due to the braxton hicks I have been having. I went and the baby looks great and my cervix looks great. I was pleased. We also found out that it's a boy. We were ecstatc. So the tech went to talk to the dr. We looked at the 3d pics of the baby we got and he looks just like my dh. He is so gorgeous and perfect. The Dr and the tech came in and the dr then did a vag u/s and noticed that the placenta is covering my cervix. In time it should move to early to diagnose me with placenta previa but if in about 2-4 wks it does not move then I will be officially diagnosed with placenta previa. Which is pretty common I had it with my older son. The Dr did mention that my hematoma is bigger than it was a few weeks ago. At this point I'm at a high risk for a m/c. I guess your body goes through an inflamation stage and your body reacts to the bleed and trys to dissolve it but in the meantime that can rupture my membranes or cause an infection that can go to my baby and potentially kill him. I'm scared and fighting just losing it. I have now seen my baby perfectly and feel a bond with him I can't bear to lose him not now. I asked please is there any meds I can take to make this bleed go away and she said no. It would do more harm. She told me for right now everything is fine. She told me to play the waiting game and in the meantime very little activity period. I can't stand up for long etc. So I'm not pretty much bed ridden until who knows when. I obviously will do whatever the Dr tells me to but I have all this time to think. I keep thinking about how I could just wake up and lose him. I can't bear another later term m/c. I don't have the strength. The Dr felt so bad but she asked me to think positive. I just can't. I always tell you guys think positive. I need your help! Help me to think positive. What can I do to just know that everything will work out. My poor dh is so supportive but he twists what the dr says so he doesn't have to be scared or feel pain. He can't help if something goes wrong it will kill him. Our last m/'c in sept did him in. He is now on meds and in therapy bi-weekly along with our marital counseling. I know tmi but I just want to be honest with you guys. You are all like my family and close friends. Sorry to ramble I have really fought back the tears tonight I'm afraid once I start I won't stop! Hugs to you all,
AP

[ArmyPrincess819]

Smr08- Thank you. I love him and his name. I hope I get to meet him as well as you guys. I hope in July I'm positing up his pic. Thanks for the support!

ERica- This bed rest is going to be the death of me. Yikes. Also the bleeding it's been 4 wks now ENOUGH! I decided today just to take it day by day and try to remain positive! That doesn't mean I won't be moody though...LOL:. Thanks my friend for your support it means alot..

Big Hugs,
AP

[EricaB28]

AP,
You better be relaxing right now!! Try to stay positive. Are you feeling a bit better today? I know it's easier said than done, but try to think about this in a positive light. I agree with Joy, live in the now. Enjoy him at this very moment. I'm sending the two of you some big hugs and some ssbd...You'll both be in my prayers :)

[smr08]

Jeremy Michael, what a beautiful name. We all look forward to meeting the little guy. You take care of yourself and hold on to the positive!!

                   Many ((((((HUGS))))))
                         Lori

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thank you Joy so much I appreciate you sharing your experience and showing so much support it means the world to me.

Tjoan910canandian- Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate everything you said.

[tjoan910canadian]

You have to think Positive because that is what will get you through.........put your mind to simply refusing to lose this little boy that you already love so very much........make your body do it........my prayers & thoughts are definately with you and all mothers going through any kind of distress.....with pregnancy......special hugs to you....

[JoyRenee]

Keep thinking positively!

My last pregnancy I was talking with a bunch of women due the same month. Everyone was worrying about early miscarriage. What I told them I'm telling you now- enjoy what time you are given and enjoy your pregnancy as long as you're pregnant! You just never know what tomorrow will bring, so live in the now.

I know it is so very hard. Out of all those women I ended up being the one who miscarried... while none of them did. And I enjoyed that pregnancy to the fullest for 7 weeks and I'm proud to say how much I loved that baby and adored being pregnant even for that short time.

Keep talking to him and rubbing your belly. And while your doctor did say take it easy, putting yourself on full bedrest might be the best option (and only option) for you right now. I know he didn't say that but in the end it just may be worth it until another sonogram shows the hematoma has dissolved!

Keep visualizing that hematoma dissolving!

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thank you Kgokgo I appreciate your kind words.

Dani- Jeremy Michael is my boy's name!

[Dani711]

By the way, on another note, a BOY....boy were you wrong LOL!  Did you pick out a name???  Try to stay positive and think how nice it is to know what you are having!

[kgokgo]

I`m sorry that you are going through this uncertainity and anxiety. God has a plan for us all and I`ll be praying that yours involve holding your beautiful baby in 26 weeks time. You and your husband will be in my prayers.

Take care

[ArmyPrincess819]

Kc1021- Thank you so much. It means alot to me. I wish I could remain as positive as you and the rest of the gang but I just can't do it. It's going to destroy my marriage again. I can't seem to get it together.

[kc1021]

Hi AP,

I've followed your pregnancy in both this forum and the 18-34 forum.  We are about the same amount of weeks in our pregnancy.  Whenever I read about what you are going through with the hospital visits and frequent bleeding I always have this feeling that everything will be fine with your pregnancy.  Don't ask me why I feel that way but I just know that this baby boy will be a healthy big baby and he'll be in your arms very shortly!  

You've had a lot of experience with your previous pregnancies and previous complications, so rely on that experience to get you through these next couple weeks.  As always, take care and rest and just imagine that sweet baby!  You can do it!!!

[susi1976]

just to let you know that i will be praying for you and your baby aswell. i dont post many times in this forum but it has helped me a lot after my two miscarriages. i think you are a wonderful woman and allways have words of comfort for everybody here. i really think in the power of being positive and one thing i know, you sound to me like a very strong woman. the best of luck and have lost of rest. your baby will be fine
take care
susi

[ArmyPrincess819]

To my Girls,
                        I could not get through this without each and everyone of you! I love all of you. I have never been toched by so many people who are real and sincere. I love this forum each day I learn so much by all of you. I'm very lucky to be part of such a strong and kind community! Thank you!

Hugs,
AP

[nunu1977]

This really *****! but if you stress its only going to make it worse. your baby will feel your stress so please try and stay optimistic about having a healthy baby! I now its easier said than done.

[hazleyez]

Hey Girl, I'm so sorry you are going throguh and and what you have  to deal with now. I'm with Bam and the other posts stay calm relax do the bed rest and stay POSITIVE your baby boy is going to be perfectly fine..!! and you will meet him in the next few months!!! July isnt too far away and you`ll have ur sweet lil man in your arms in no time.. Take care and Ill keep u and the family in my prayers... BIG HUGS TO YOU>!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mikaleen]

i am sorry you have to go through this, and have had a not so easy pregnancy from the beginning.  I know a few women who have been in the same exact situation as you and they were both fine.  My step sister actually went through it twice in one year and both of her dd's are fine.  They'll keep you in bed, (and you need to stay there!), she actually spent her last month in the hospital so they could give her steroid shots and monitor dd's lung development so they could section her early to make sure everything was ok. (she had it pretty bad).  It's not easy, but take it one day at a time, and you and your dear baby wil both make it through this.

[Dani711]

Stay in Bed!  I am really sorry you are going through all of this.  I know the attachement I have with my baby now, each time you get to see him it makes it so real.  The most important thing is to know that the dr.s still think you will be OK, and you have to believe that.  As long as you take it easy and keep praying for the best everything will work out.  I wish you the best :)

[BP0629]

AP - ok girlie...just keep thinking POSITIVE HAPPY THOUGHT!! *POSTIVE VIBES* are gushing your way from me right now as I type & you read this...feel them...they kinda tickle don't they? lol Girl you are one of the toughest women I know & you & the beautiful baby boy are going to make it through this. i can feel it in my bones. you yourself said the placenta previa is quite common. don't scare yourself and cause unnecessary excess stress right now. it isn't good for you, baby, or DH. stay in bed and on your back as much as possible. i know it *****, i was on bedrest for about 2 1/2 -3 months w/ my 1st & over 4 months w/ my 2nd. its hard, but you follow drs orders to the 'T' to save that baby (and take care of you). It will all be worth it in the end. I'm going to copy a quote that one of my moms BFs gave her to have me carry after my 2nd MC/tubal ordeal. I know you have faith in God so hopefully it will give you strength & peace as it did me. (Sorry if it offends anyone, but its helpful). She made me carry it in my pocket everyday & when I felt sad or discouraged I was to take it out & read it. Hope it helps a little...


Concentrate on this Sentence:

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.'

When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you,

but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

Concentrate on this sentence...

'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'

You, your DH, & baby boy are in my prayers. I'm here if you need to talk! xoxoxo...now get your bootie BACK IN BED!!! *lol* (HUGS)

[Tiger63]

Hey AP, I'm so sorry you are going through this but just think how strong your baby has been so far! Alll that bleeding and he is still holding on. He is strong and you are strong my friend. Two weeks is so long to wait but i have faith that you will look after yourself. Try to stay busy and keep your mind off things. When i started bleeding earlier this pregnancy, it was extremely hard to stay positive so when i was worring about m/c i just kept saying this over and over in my head: "i am having a healthy pregnancy. My baby is strong and perfect". I know it sounds cheesy but i kept saying it until i calmed myself down. Try it!

Look after yourself sweetie xoxox

[GMB08]

ap...if He brings you to it hell get you through it.....think positive.....take extra care of yourself.................................i hope it all works out! blessings!

[mapes10]

I think the best part of having friends is that they hold you up when you don't have the strength to stand.  We are all here for you, and just know that there are tons of prayers going up for you.  God is being flooded with requests.  When you can't take it anymore, come on here and post.  You know there is always someone around willing to listen and support you.  Try to relax as much as possible, and keep us updated.  When do you have to go back to the dr?

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thank you all so much. I think you are all the best. I love you guys. I'm really having a hard time it's affecting my sleep my moods etc. Your words are so uplifting. Thank you for taking the time to be so supportive. It means so much to me and my baby that you keep us in your prayers. Thank you.

Hugs,
AP

[mjml]

Ahh sweety everything will be fine i promise. Your baby will be strong and fight its way to live. I understand your bond with the baby i had that the second i saw my babies heart beat its a maternal thing. My dad tells me everything happens for a reason and one day however bad it seems or down u feel it will all be explained. Hope you feel better soon babe x

[steph9803]

I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this now. I'm with Bam...He is going to be just fine! I'm sending you lots of love and hugs. You and your family will be in my prayers.