I think I may have already posted a response to this. This is a very common syndrome which requires a therapist or coach to help you work through. But the rewards can be great for doing that work.
thanks for the response, i think you are right, i think i have been mildly depressed all my life and recently it has manifested into a more severe form, along with severe anxiety, but it is slowly getting better, a lot better than a couple years ago when i was having reoccurring panic attacks for a couple months, i think i had a nervous breakdown.