Remember me? How are all of you? I hope you are doing good.. Me, could be better. I'm recovering from pneumonia. I had a cold, it dropped into the lungs, started to have the MS hug from it, couldn't take a deep breathe, and you can get the picture.
LuLu noticed my status change LOL...but this has always been my DX all along. I was DX with PPMS at the beginning of last year. I didn't deal with it too well. You would think that a person that was in limboland as long as I was, would take some solitude in the fact that I had answers. I did, but my personality got in the way.
What most people don't realize is that I have always been the 1 that takes care of everyone. No one takes care of me. I'm the friend that listens to your problems, I very rarely discuss mine. When I decided to give it a try and seek family and friends out for help, advice, a shoulder to cry on, most were too busy, or my cries went unheard. Maybe I didn't scream loud enough.
To make a long story short, I almost died last year because I trusted the wrong people. I wanted someone to except me so much, that I didn't see what was even in front of me. I'm still recovering from the trauma from that. It hurts my soul knowing that there is people out there that don't care about another human being and I was so stupid to believe that they did care.
Anyways, I got my head back on straight (hopefully), dove into writing and singing songs, eliminated bad people in my life, and I'm still looking for some direction and road that this will lead me on. I've adopted 1 thing... I'm going to have fun and enjoy everyday and value myself.
I even posted some of my songs on youtube. This butterfly is coming out of her cocoon. Bout time :)