eye pain is driving me nuts (more nuts than usual that is)

[wishforchange]

This constant throb throb throb in my left eye just won't give in.  Now and again the right eye joins in but mostly is just the left.  Have had my appointment moved forward a whole month and is now the week after next.  My GP didn't even want me to change the appointment.  He said it was just uveitis or something and was because of my double vision.  The pain is untreatable with any of my pills, even hit the wine tonight.  Only relief is for a few minutes on waking up in the morning.  How do I put up with another week or so of this, assuming they'll do anything then?  Surely there must be some anaesthetic drops or something I can put in my eye, will happily sacrifice my vision in one eye for a few days to let it settle.  Seems silly to take it to the hospital as an emergency when everybody has told me it isn't and I already have an appointment soon.  It is like a headache right behind my pupil,  It's so easy for all the medics to dismiss it but they are not living with this all day every day, for two weeks now.  Ooh, mixed my wine and meds, sleep iminent.  Any thoughts will pick them up later, thanks.

[Quixotic1]

Thanks, Kiddo, that's much easier to read!  Yes, go in the morning or now.  If your eye is red stop wearing contacts.

(((HUGS)))

Quix

[wishforchange]

It's at times like this this forum becomes the family I don't have.  Quix I didn't make it to the hospital today but phoneed them.  I strangely keep getting the same nurse.  He wants me to come in to get it checked out.  Went shopping tonight and spent half the evening stumbling into shop shelves and knocking products all over the floor, and the second half screaming and...lost control...at a nightmare of a store manager.  Carrying this 'thing' in my head is not doing my powers of ladylike restraint much use.  I'm dropping everything because what I'm seeing and what's there is clearly not matching.  

So okay, I will defy my moronic GP, get patronized and told I'm a neurotic woman who can't keep away from hospitals, try not to thump anyone at least whilst I'm on the premises, and go first thing tomorrow.  Eight days to my appointment.  Eight minutes of this pain is too much.  Eight seconds.  Full of pills and beer now like some tragic old tart and whether or not they can sort me out I have to go tomorrow.  Oh, new paragraph, sorry.

You are thinking of me and what is best and that means a lot to me.  Am tipsy on low alchohol beer right now, but considering what it is combined with not surprising.  And despite all my eye still hurts.  How can it be beyond ANY painkiller?  Tempyed to get changed and go now.  Will take out my contacts, rest my eyes for an hour, maybe resist temptation to sleep as I won't get up, and then go.  Defying all advie except yours here.  But if this is inflammation of nerve or muscle I'm not going to wait around.  

Thanks for advice.  Better to be humiliated than risk losing more of my vision...

[Fluffysmom]

Shoot, my friend, I hope you took yourself off to the eye hospital.  I really don't want you suffering, or, worse yet, suffering worse damage to your eyes.

I'll be thinking about you.  I'm going under a bunch of needles today, but I'll be hoping that you are doing better, and getting some help.

Take care,

Kathy

[Quixotic1]

Honey, you know that I can't answer that from here.  My kneejerk rection is to be cautious, to look at the possible consequences of what something sounds like.  I don't know.

I do know that when I left medicine after 23 years, I left knowing that I never let a child die or suffer severe harm because I "played the odds" and was casual about responding to things.  That means I was sometimes guilty of hospitalizing too quickly or referring too early.  That's easier to live with than the other.

My advice stands.  Good luck with what you decide.

Quix

[wishforchange]

I've been fuming at my GP all week.  Problem is no doctor, maybe in the land, will touch me anymore because I impose such strict conditions on them.  I'm lucky to even have this one, but his friendly persona seems to have slipped.  Maybe he is not quite the practitioner I thought.  

He was behaving like an idiot all through the consultation.  Apart from telling me to put up with my eye problems, whereas even the hospital is taking them seriously, he also wouldn't refer me on to a rheumatologist until he had the letter from orthopedics, which could take months to arrive.  He had in front of him my mri's, eye report, me sitting there with giant swollen feet, and apparently that was not enough evidence to make the referral.  He wisely suggested SLE (which I now recall was something I mentioned to him some months back), but again wasn't going to do anything about it.

He wouldn't do my disability claim forms, saying he needed my records.  Seems he forgot my conditions of registration, and all the paperwork I gave him on first meeting.  Now I have to see him again with the same paperwork so he can fill out the form.  

I needed an adjustment in my medications, and explained in detail the reasons why.  He is giving me my lorry load each month for which I am grateful but I am undermedicated in one drug and need more of another for emergency use only.  His response was the 'a' word.  It offends me greatly, knowing me and my history and that I may be dependant but have always been responsible this was uncalled for.  I'm starting to wonder if since my pursuing this complaint about his predecessor the malicious gossip has reached his ears.  He was not supposed to look into my past, that was our agreement.  I can't tell him how angry I am until after he has done the forms and made the referrals, plus he is the only one prescribing for me and I can't afford to fall out with him.

I did warn you on Lauri's post that I might rant here.  This is supposed to be about my eyes.  I know inside I need this to be evaluated now.  Even waiting until the appointment in ten days or so may be too long.  But I am SO sick of hospitals, doctors, disappointment, ego lotteries, whatever.  Really if I went out in the next hour or so I could likely beat the queue.  I mentioned on the other post that my response to pain is not normal.  I kind of either grab for the pills or put up with it, I no longer remember that it is a warning sign of damage.

Your advice is right.  Whether I can bring myself to follow it... Keep thinking, only unitl Wednesday next week, nobody has told me to come into A&E, the pain isn't worsening is just relentless, maybe it's a cold (behind my eyes?). . . .  

My registered blind dad is worried, and he rarely worries about my health.  The absence of response from either narcotics or valium suggests it's a nerve thing (I DO read you other responses, aka the Lyrica debate and the health page). This is as maddening as a toothache, and just doesn't let up, yet still I want a break from hospitals.   Is ten days too long to wait, or should I go this morning?

[Quixotic1]

You need to go to the eye hospital.  Worsening pain needs to be evaluated.

Your GP is wrong.  Double vision does not cause inflammation of the eye.  If this is optic neuritis, anesthetic drops are not helpful because it isn't the cornea that is painful, it is the pulling on the inflamed optic nerve.

If this is uveitis, it must be treated promptly!!!  Uveitis needs special drops to treat it to prevent permanent damage to the eye!

Be seen!

Quix