If you have anxiety and porn addiction, you should be seeing a therapist. That would be the perfect place to explore your feelings. Being transgender is not a problem if it is who you are and you own it. If you live in limbo though, that is difficult. Talk to a therapist about it. And porn addiction is never good nor conducive to self discovery or actual relationships with other people (IE: normal life). So, get rid of that before you do anything drastic. good luck