Am I a lesbian or do I have HOCD?

[Anna_mcdo]

I’m a girl and I don’t want to be a lesbian, get married to a girl or be with a girl like that. I want to be with a boy alothough I have trust issues. I don’t really find girls attractive however I do get aroused by lesbian porn. I find boys attractive. I’ve never had any experience with any. However for about a month and a bit I have been stressing over if I was gay or not. I’ve been seeking reassurance from online tests and they have always said I was straight but I still thought about it. I’ve had lots of stress and I’m scared. I keep testing myself to find if I find women attractive. I keep thinking I’m in denial but I’ve don’t a HOCD rest and it said I had a high chance of having HOCD but now I think that I’m in denial about hat and it’s getting out of control.

[Wookie101]

This is exactly what I am going though! I know how hard it is, it really sucks. But every thing happens for a reason. My escape is music. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger! I know we can all get thought this, it gets better.

[Jegfkfm]

Same here I have been struggling with the same thing and the tests all said I am straight so here is the thing that helps me I say to my self your past doesn’t define you you are older smarter and more mature and then I count to 60 seconds and calm down